I shall never forget the sight of the two as we went away: he stood,
smiling and waving his hand, under an apple-tree in full bloom, with
the sun shining on the flowers. It gave me the sense of a pure and
simple content such as I have rarely experienced. The beauty and
strength of the picture have dwelt with me ever since, showing me that
a soul can be thus shut up in what would seem to be so dark a prison,
with the windows, through which most of us look upon the world, closed
and shuttered; and yet not only not losing the joy of life, but seeming
to taste it in fullest measure. If one could but accept thus one's own
limitations, viewing them not as sources of pleasure closed, but as
opening the door more wide to what remains; the very simplicity and
rarity of the perceptions that are left, gaining in depth and quality
from their isolation. But beyond all this lies that well-spring of
inner joy, which seems to be withheld from so many of us. Is it indeed
withheld? Is it conferred upon this poor soul simply as a tender
compensation? Can we not by quiet passivity, rather than by resolute
effort, learn the secret of it? I believe myself that the source is
there in many hearts, but that we visit it too rarely, and forget it in
the multitude of little cares and businesses, which seem so important,
so absorbing. It is like a hidden treasure, which we go so far abroad
to seek, and for which we endure much weariness of wandering; while all
the while it is buried in our own garden-ground; we have paced to and
fro above it many times, never dreaming that the bright thing lay
beneath our feet, and within reach of our forgetful hand.
XXI
Leisure
It was a bright day in early spring; large, fleecy clouds floated in a
blue sky; the wind was cool, but the sun lay hot in sheltered places.
I was spending a few days with an old friend, at a little house he
calls his Hermitage, in a Western valley; we had walked out, had passed
the bridge, and had stood awhile to see the clear stream flowing, a
vein of reflected sapphire, among the green water-meadows; we had
climbed up among the beech-woods, through copses full of primroses, to
a large heathery hill, where a clump of old pines stood inside an
ancient earth-work. The forest lay at our feet, and the doves cooed
lazily among the tree-tops; beyond lay the plain, with a long range of
smooth downs behind, where the river broadened to the sea-pool, which
narrowed again to the little harbour; and, across the clustered
house-roofs and the lonely church tower of the port, we could see a
glint of the sea.
We sat awhile in silence; then "Come," I said, "I am going to be
impertinent! I am in a mood to ask questions, and to have full
answers."
"And I," said my host placidly, "am always in the mood to answer
questions."
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