Marion having come forward to say the proper thing, added, "Drusilla's
going, too."
"Drusilla?"
"Yes, with my college unit--to run errands in a flivver."
The next day, encountering Derry on the street, Drusilla opened her
knitting bag and brought out a tiny parcel. "It's my wedding gift to
you. I found it in Emily's toy shop."
It was a gay little French tin soldier. "For a mascot;" she told him,
seriously. "Derry, dear, I shall not try to tell you how I feel about
your marriage to Jean. About your going. If I could sing it, you'd
know. But I haven't any words. It--it seems so--perfect that the Tin
Soldier should go--to the wars--and that the girl he leaves behind him
should be a little white maid like--Jean."
Thus Drusilla, with a shake in her voice, renouncing a--dream.
Derry, who was on his way to Margaret's showed the tin soldier to Teddy
and his little sister. "He is going to the wars."
"With you?"
"Yes."
"When are you going?"
"As soon as I can--"
"I should think you wouldn't like to leave us."
"Well, I don't. But I am coming back."
"Daddy didn't come back."
"But some men do."
"Perhaps God doesn't love you as much as He did Daddy, and He won't
want to keep you."
"Perhaps not--"
The things which the child had spoken stayed with Derry all that day.
His feeling about death had always been that of a man who has long
years before him. He had rather jauntily conceded that some men die
young, but that the chances in his case were for a green old age. He
might indeed have fifty years before him, and in fifty years one
could--get ready--age had to do with serious things, people were
peaceful and prepared.
But to get ready now. To face the thing squarely, saying, "I may not
come back--there are, indeed, a thousand chances that I shall not
come." Lacking those fifty years in which to grow towards the thought
of dissolution, what ought one to do? Should a man make himself fit in
some special fashion?
There was, too, the thought of those whom he might leave behind. Of
Jean--his wife--whom he would leave. She would break her heart--at
first. And then--? Would she remember? Would she forget? Would he
and those millions of others who had gone down in battle become dim
memories--pale shadows against the vivid background of the hurrying
world?
He felt that he could not, must not speak of these things to Jean. So
he talked of them to Emily.
"If anything should happen to me," he said, "I couldn't, of course,
expect that Jean would go on--caring--. And if there should ever be
anyone else--I--I should want her to be happy."
"Don't try to be magnanimous," Miss Emily advised. "You are human, and
it isn't in the heart of man to want the woman he loves ever to turn to
another. Let the years take care of that. But you can be very sure of
one thing--that no one will ever take your place with Jean."
"But she may marry."
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