"By Jove, Jean-Joan, I never knew before what women meant in the lives
of men. Here we are marooned, as it were, on an island of masculinity,
yet it isn't what the other fellows think of us that counts, it is what
you think who are miles away. Always in the back of our minds is the
thought of what you expect of us and demand of us, and added to what we
demand and expect of ourselves, it sways us level. We don't talk a
great deal about you, but now and then some fellow says, 'My wife,' and
we all prick up our ears and want to hear the rest of it.
"It is a great life, dearest, in spite of the hard work, in spite of
the stress and strain. And to me who have known so little of the great
human game it is a great revelation.
"In the first place, there has been brought to me the knowledge of the
joy of real labor. I shall never again be sorry for the man who toils.
You see, I had never toiled, not in the sense that a man does whose
labor counts. I was always a rather anxious and lonely little boy,
looking after my father and trying to help my mother, and feeling a bit
of a mollycoddle because I had a tutor and did not go to school with
the other chaps. In the eyes of the world I was looked upon as a lucky
fellow, but I know now what I have missed. In these days I am rubbing
elbows with fellows who have had to hustle, and I am discovering that
life is a great game, and that I have missed the game. If Dad had been
different, he might have pushed me into things, as some men with money
push their sons, making them stand on their own feet. But Dad liked an
easy life, and he was perhaps entitled to ease, for he had struggled in
his younger years. But I have never struggled. I have always had
somebody to brush my clothes and to bring my breakfast, and I think I
have had a sort of hazy idea that life was like that for everybody--or
if it wasn't, then the people who couldn't be brushed and breakfasted
by others were much to be pitied.
"Oh, I've been a Tin Soldier, Jean-Joan, left out not only of the war
but of life. I've been on the shelf all these years in our big house,
with the wooden trumpets blowing, 'Trutter-a-trutt' while other men
have striven.
"When I first came here I had a sort of detached feeling. I had no
experiences to match with the experiences of other men. I had never
had to rush in the morning to catch a subway, I had never eaten, to put
it poetically, by candlelight, so that I might get to the store by
eight. I had never sold papers, or plowed fields, or stood behind a
counter. I had never sat at a desk, I had never in fact done anything
really useful, I had just been rich, and that isn't much of a
background as I am beginning to see it here--.
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