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At the same time, so far as Aileen was concerned things were obviously
shaping up for additional changes. She was in that peculiar state which
has befallen many a woman—trying to substitute a lesser ideal for a
greater, and finding that the effort is useless or nearly so. In regard
to her affair with Lynde, aside from the temporary relief and diversion
it had afforded her, she was beginning to feel that she had made a
serious mistake. Lynde was delightful, after his fashion. He could
amuse her with a different type of experience from any that Cowperwood
had to relate. Once they were intimate he had, with an easy, genial
air, confessed to all sorts of liaisons in Europe and America. He was
utterly pagan—a faun—and at the same time he was truly of the smart
world. His open contempt of all but one or two of the people in Chicago
whom Aileen had secretly admired and wished to associate with, and his
easy references to figures of importance in the East and in Paris and
London, raised him amazingly in her estimation; it made her feel, sad
to relate, that she had by no means lowered herself in succumbing so
readily to his forceful charms.
Nevertheless, because he was what he was—genial, complimentary,
affectionate, but a playboy, merely, and a soldier of fortune, with no
desire to make over her life for her on any new basis—she was now
grieving over the futility of this romance which had got her nowhere,
and which, in all probability, had alienated Cowperwood for good. He
was still outwardly genial and friendly, but their relationship was now
colored by a sense of mistake and uncertainty which existed on both
sides, but which, in Aileen’s case, amounted to a subtle species of
soul-torture. Hitherto she had been the aggrieved one, the one whose
loyalty had never been in question, and whose persistent affection and
faith had been greatly sinned against. Now all this was changed. The
manner in which he had sinned against her was plain enough, but the way
in which, out of pique, she had forsaken him was in the other balance.
Say what one will, the loyalty of woman, whether a condition in nature
or an evolved accident of sociology, persists as a dominating thought
in at least a section of the race; and women themselves, be it said,
are the ones who most loudly and openly subscribe to it. Cowperwood
himself was fully aware that Aileen had deserted him, not because she
loved him less or Lynde more, but because she was hurt—and deeply so.
Aileen knew that he knew this. From one point of view it enraged her
and made her defiant; from another it grieved her to think she had
uselessly sinned against his faith in her. Now he had ample excuse to
do anything he chose. Her best claim on him—her wounds—she had thrown
away as one throws away a weapon. Her pride would not let her talk to
him about this, and at the same time she could not endure the easy,
tolerant manner with which he took it. His smiles, his forgiveness, his
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