Married women -- Fiction; Mothers -- Fiction; Women authors -- Fiction
And then he had her in his arms, and his eyes--full of the tears he had
tried to repress--were gazing down into hers!
"Don't you suppose I realize what you might have done? Don't you
suppose I've seen what you've given up for me--for me and Eric?"
She could not speak. She could only gaze back at him, incredulous
still of the comprehension that he had so long concealed from her.
"I've been a selfish brute, Sheila," he went on. "I've craved all of
you for myself and my child, and I've had all of you. It's been my
man's way, I reckon, for I couldn't have helped it. If I had it to do
over again, it would be just the same--though I'm ashamed of myself
now. Of course I didn't ask you to give up your writing, but I'd quite
as well have asked you. For I guessed that you'd done it--after Eric
had scarlet fever--and I _let_ you, without a word. I've let you
sacrifice your talent ever since, too--needlessly. Yes, I've _let_
you--for I've seen the whole thing."
She had sometimes felt that the tragedy of her life had been in all
that Ted had not seen. Now, finding that he had seen so much more than
she had ever suspected--so much of what had been profound suffering to
her--she might readily have blamed him more than she had ever done
before. But generosity rushed out of her to meet his
generosity--belated though his was.
"No, no," she interrupted, "it isn't that you let me give up my work.
The fault isn't yours. That awful night--when it seemed that Eric
would die--I offered my work for his life--I offered it to _God_! That
was why I didn't write afterward."
Ted fixed pitying eyes upon her: "You poor little girl! Was it as bad
as that with you? I knew I was taking advantage of your conscience,
but I never dreamed you'd carried your remorse so far. Did you really
believe you had to buy God's mercy? Oh, no, dear. It's only your
husband that's seized the opportunity to extract a sacrifice from your
Puritan conscience. But with all my selfishness, I haven't stopped
you--I haven't been the end of your talent."
She started to tell him of her late emancipation from that unnecessary
vow of hers; to tell him that she had tried to write again--and
discovered that she could not. But she did not tell him after all.
For that could only hurt and shame him--in the hour of his penitence.
So she was silent, and he continued with appealing eagerness.
"I haven't been the end of your talent," he repeated. "Don't you
realize, dear, that your talent isn't ended at all?"
"You mean--Eric?"
"Yes, I mean that you've handed on your gift to Eric. And he's going
to have the chance I wasn't unselfish enough to let you have. Don't be
afraid for him--he's going to have his chance, And he'll know what to
do with it! I believe you'll be the mother of a great man--and that
Eric will probably be the father of great men. I believe it will go on
and on and on--what you are, what you might have done."
"But, Ted--Eric is only a child. We cannot be sure yet--
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