First loves -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Russian fiction -- Translations into English
Maria Nikolaevna glanced at him. “Ah, I see you’re as soft as silk!
Your wife will have an easy time of it with you. That buffoon,” she
went on, pointing with her fan towards the howling actor (he was acting
the part of a tutor), “reminded me of my young days; I, too, was in
love with a teacher. It was my first … no, my second passion. The first
time I fell in love with a young monk of the Don monastery. I was
twelve years old. I only saw him on Sundays. He used to wear a short
velvet cassock, smelt of lavender water, and as he made his way through
the crowd with the censer, used to say to the ladies in French,
‘_Pardon, excusez_’ but never lifted his eyes, and he had eyelashes
like that!” Maria Nikolaevna marked off with the nail of her middle
finger quite half the length of the little finger and showed Sanin. “My
tutor was called—Monsieur Gaston! I must tell you he was an awfully
learned and very severe person, a Swiss,—and with such an energetic
face! Whiskers black as pitch, a Greek profile, and lips that looked
like cast iron! I was afraid of him! He was the only man I have ever
been afraid of in my life. He was tutor to my brother, who died … was
drowned. A gipsy woman has foretold a violent death for me too, but
that’s all moonshine. I don’t believe in it. Only fancy Ippolit
Sidoritch with a dagger!”
“One may die from something else than a dagger,” observed Sanin.
“All that’s moonshine! Are you superstitious? I’m not a bit. What is to
be, will be. Monsieur Gaston used to live in our house, in the room
over my head. Sometimes I’d wake up at night and hear his footstep—he
used to go to bed very late—and my heart would stand still with
veneration, or some other feeling. My father could hardly read and
write himself, but he gave us an excellent education. Do you know, I
learnt Latin!”
“You? learnt Latin?”
“Yes; I did. Monsieur Gaston taught me. I read the _Æneid_ with him.
It’s a dull thing, but there are fine passages. Do you remember when
Dido and Æneas are in the forest?…”
“Yes, yes, I remember,” Sanin answered hurriedly. He had long ago
forgotten all his Latin, and had only very faint notions about the
_Æneid_.
Maria Nikolaevna glanced at him, as her way was, a little from one side
and looking upwards. “Don’t imagine, though, that I am very learned.
Mercy on us! no; I’m not learned, and I’ve no talents of any sort. I
scarcely know how to write … really; I can’t read aloud; nor play the
piano, nor draw, nor sew—nothing! That’s what I am—there you have me!”
She threw out her hands. “I tell you all this,” she said, “first, so as
not to hear those fools (she pointed to the stage where at that instant
the actor’s place was being filled by an actress, also howling, and
also with her elbows projecting before her) and secondly, because I’m
in your debt; you told me all about yourself yesterday.”
“It was your pleasure to question me,” observed Sanin.
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