Tom’s letter was sent to Helen, who was about starting for Narragansett
Pier with a party of friends. Just how it affected her it was hard to
tell. She gave up the trip to Narragansett, saying she was not feeling
well and preferred to remain at home. If she cried, no one saw her. If
she were sorry, no one knew it. She was too proud to show her real
feelings, or talk of a past which was buried, but her eyes were very
heavy and her face very pale as she sat behind the closed blinds of her
house, at home to no one, and supposed by most of her friends to be out
of town, as she usually was at that season. Fanny urged her coming to
Ridgefield, and she replied, “Not yet. It would bring back a past I wish
to forget. Your father is dead, and I have no hard feeling towards him.
We were both in fault. I was self willed, and thought because I had
money I must not be crossed. He was a man who could not yield quietly to
be governed in every particular by a woman. But let that pass. I am glad
you knew him and glad you revere his memory.”
This was quite a concession for Helen, and showed that much of her proud
spirit was broken. When she heard how fast Mrs. Taylor was failing as
the summer wore on she sent her little notes of remembrance, with boxes
of flowers and delicacies of various kinds. These pleased Uncle Zach,
but it was difficult to know whether his wife realized the attention.
She always seemed glad when Fanny was with her, but nothing brought so
happy a look to her face as the appearance of Uncle Zach in his wheel
chair, and her eyes rested constantly upon him when he was with her, but
she couldn’t speak to him or return the pressure of his hand when he
laid it on hers.
“She can’t do nothin’ she wants to,” Uncle Zach said pathetically. “I’d
like to kiss her, but I can’t stand alone and should tumble on to her,
if I tried.”
“I’ll help you,” Fanny said, and passing her arms around him she held
him, while he bent down and kissed the old wife whose quivering lips
returned the kiss and tried so hard to speak.
That night she died, and no young husband ever made a bitterer moan for
his bride of a few months than did Zacheus over his Dotty. “The greatest
woman in the world for runnin’ a tarvern and keepin’ a feller straight,”
he said amidst his tears, which fell continually, sleeping or waking. He
did not think of her as old and wrinkled and grey haired, but as she had
been in their early married life, when she was slight and fair, with
long curls in her neck and around her face. “The prettiest girl in town
as she is now the most remarkable woman. I shall get along somehow, I
s’pose,” he said to Fanny, “but it is very dark with Dotty gone, and
Mark, too, and Jeff, and Johnny in the cemetry goin’ on sixty year. If
he had lived he might have had boys to stay with me. As ’tis, I am all
alone. It isn’t pleasant to be old and helpless and all alone and cold
as I am most of the time with this pesky rheumatis’.”
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