Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Married women -- Fiction
The real cause of her reticence was not so easily fathomable. I
suppose it was her instinctive method of withdrawing a subject that was
secretly precious to her from the knowledge of the one person in the
world who might reasonably assert a right to share it. If she had
analysed it, no doubt she would have proved that her interest in Arthur
was more intimate than she had ever confessed. But she didn't analyse
it. Neither, for that matter, did Mrs. Payne. Looking backward, a
year later, that good woman realised what a psychological howler she
had made. At the time she was merely thankful that Arthur was happy in
the society of a woman whom she liked and trusted--to whom, indeed, she
had more or less confided him--and sorry that at the very moment when
her influence might have counted, Gabrielle appeared to be losing
interest in the boy. It cheered her to think that Arthur was
expressing any admiration so human and, to be frank, so unlike himself.
She was even more cheered when she received Considine's report on him
at the beginning of the Christmas holidays. "_There have been one or
two unpleasant incidents,_" wrote the tactful Considine, "_but during
the latter part of the term I must say that your boy's conduct has been
practically unexceptionable. I think it is only right to tell you that
I have great hopes of him._" At the same time Gabrielle was silent.
Of course Considine didn't really know as much about it as she did. He
had seen the broad effects of Arthur's adoration--for that is what it
was now becoming--but he knew nothing of the struggles that had gone to
their making. During the latter part of the term his conduct had not
been by any means "unexceptionable"; but it was part of Gabrielle's
queer policy of secrecy to hide any lapse on Arthur's part from her
husband. She tackled them alone, forcing herself, against her own
compassionate instincts, to play upon Arthur's feelings. She had now
discovered that where appeals to general morality, or even to reason,
were bound to fail, the least sign of suffering on her part could
reduce Arthur to a miserable and perfectly genuine repentance. Such
was the end of all their struggles; and there were many; for she would
not let the least sign of his old weakness pass. At times she felt
that she was cruel, but she allowed herself to be harrowed, finding,
perhaps, in the pain that she inflicted on both of them, something that
was flattering both to her conscience and to her self-esteem.
During all this time there was nothing approaching intimacy between
them. To him, however he might adore her, she was always Mrs.
Considine. In all their relations they preserved the convention that
she was a creature of another world and of another age. No doubt his
childishness made the illusion easy to him. With her there must surely
have been moments of emotion when she realised that the barrier was
artificial. It is impossible to say how soon the first of these
moments came.
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