"That's your villainy. _C'est de l'exquis, du pur exquis_. Come, my dear
fellow, this is very serious--it's a bad business," said Gabriel Nash.
Then he added almost with austerity: "You'll be so good as to place
before me every patch of paint, every sketch and scrap, that this room
contains."
Nick complied in great good humour. He turned out his boxes and drawers,
shovelled forth the contents of bulging portfolios, mounted on chairs to
unhook old canvases that had been severely "skied." He was modest and
docile and patient and amused, above all he was quite thrilled--thrilled
with the idea of eliciting a note of appreciation so late in the day. It
was the oddest thing how he at present in fact found himself imputing
value to his visitor--attributing to him, among attributions more
confused, the dignity of judgement, the authority of knowledge. Nash was
an ambiguous character but an excellent touchstone. The two said very
little for a while, and they had almost half an hour's silence, during
which, after our young man had hastily improvised an exhibition, there
was only a puffing of cigarettes. Gabriel walked about, looking at this
and that, taking up rough studies and laying them down, asking a
question of fact, fishing with his umbrella, on the floor, amid a pile
of unarranged sketches. Nick accepted jocosely the attitude of suspense,
but there was even more of it in his heart than in his face. So few
people had seen his young work--almost no one who really counted. He had
been ashamed of it, never showing it to bring on a conclusion, since a
conclusion was precisely what he feared. He whistled now while he let
his companion take time. He rubbed old panels with his sleeve and dabbed
wet sponges on surfaces that had sunk. It was a long time since he had
felt so gay, strange as such an assertion sounds in regard to a young
man whose bridal-day had at his urgent solicitation lately been fixed.
He had stayed in town to be alone with his imagination, and suddenly,
paradoxically, the sense of that result had arrived with poor Nash.
"Nicholas Dormer," this personage remarked at last, "for grossness of
immorality I think I've never seen your equal."
"That sounds so well," Nick returned, "that I hesitate to risk spoiling
it by wishing it explained."
"Don't you recognise in _any_ degree the grand idea of duty?"
"If I don't grasp it with a certain firmness I'm a deadly failure, for I
was quite brought up on it," Nick said.
"Then you're indeed the wretchedest failure I know. Life is ugly, after
all."
"Do I gather that you yourself recognise obligations of the order you
allude to?"
"Do you 'gather'?" Nash stared. "Why, aren't they the very flame of my
faith, the burden of my song?"
"My dear fellow, duty is doing, and I've inferred that you think rather
poorly of doing--that it spoils one's style."
"Doing wrong, assuredly."
"But what do you call right? What's your canon of certainty there?" Nick
asked.
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