some dead leaves in its green arms and was firmly holding them as though
to promise that another spring would surely come. With the flower in
her hand, she started up the ravine to her dreaming place, but it was so
lonely up there and she turned back. She went into her room and tried
to read. Mechanically, she half opened the lid of the piano and shut
it, horrified by her own act. As she passed out on the porch again she
noticed that it was only nine o'clock. She turned and watched the long
hand--how long a minute was! Three hours more! She shivered and went
inside and got her bonnet--she could not be alone when the hour came,
and she started down the road toward Uncle Billy's mill. Hale! Hale!
Hale!--the name began to ring in her ears like a bell. The little shacks
he had built up the creek were deserted and gone to ruin, and she began
to wonder in the light of what her father had said how much of a tragedy
that meant to him. Here was the spot where he was fishing that day, when
she had slipped down behind him and he had turned and seen her for the
first time. She could recall his smile and the very tone of his kind
voice:
“Howdye, little girl!” And the cat had got her tongue. She remembered
when she had written her name, after she had first kissed him at the
foot of the beech--“June HAIL,” and by a grotesque mental leap the
beating of his name in her brain now made her think of the beating of
hailstones on her father's roof one night when as a child she had lain
and listened to them. Then she noticed that the autumn shadows seemed to
make the river darker than the shadows of spring--or was it already
the stain of dead leaves? Hale could have told her. Those leaves were
floating through the shadows and when the wind moved, others zig-zagged
softly down to join them. The wind was helping them on the water, too,
and along came one brown leaf that was shaped like a tiny trireme--its
stem acting like a rudder and keeping it straight before the breeze--so
that it swept past the rest as a yacht that she was once on had swept
past a fleet of fishing sloops. She was not unlike that swift little
ship and thirty yards ahead were rocks and shallows where it and the
whole fleet would turn topsy-turvy--would her own triumph be as short
and the same fate be hers? There was no question as to that, unless she
took the wheel of her fate in her own hands and with them steered the
ship. Thinking hard, she walked on slowly, with her hands behind her
and her eyes bent on the road. What should she do? She had no money, her
father had none to spare, and she could accept no more from Hale. Once
she stopped and stared with unseeing eyes at the blue sky, and once
under the heavy helplessness of it all she dropped on the side of the
road and sat with her head buried in her arms--sat so long that she rose
with a start and, with an apprehensive look at the mounting sun, hurried
on. She would go to the Gap and teach; and then she knew that if she
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