There needs but so little to encourage beauty in our soul; so little
to awaken the slumbering angels; or perhaps is there no need of
awakening—it is enough that we lull them not to sleep. It requires
more effort to fall, perhaps, than to rise. Can we, without putting
constraint upon ourselves, confine our thoughts to everyday things at
times when the sea stretches before us, and we are face to face with
the night? And what soul is there but knows that it is ever confronting
the sea, ever in presence of an eternal night? Did we but dread beauty
less it would come about that nought else in life would be visible; for
in reality it is beauty that underlies everything, it is beauty alone
that exists. There is no soul but is conscious of this, none that is
not in readiness; but where are those that hide not their beauty? And
yet must one of them ‘begin.’ Why not dare to be the one to ‘begin’?
The others are all watching eagerly around us like little children in
front of a marvellous palace. They press upon the threshold, whispering
to each other and peering through every crevice, but there is not one
who dares put his shoulder to the door. They are all waiting for some
grown-up person to come and fling it open. But hardly ever does such a
one pass by.
And yet what is needed to become the grown-up person for whom they
lie in wait? So little! The soul is not exacting. A thought that is
almost beautiful—a thought that you speak not, but that you cherish
within you at this moment, will irradiate you as though you were a
transparent vase. They will see it and their greeting to you will be
very different than had you been meditating how best to deceive your
brother. We are surprised when certain men tell us that they have never
come across real ugliness, that they cannot conceive that a soul can be
base. Yet need there be no cause for surprise. These men had ‘begun.’
They themselves had been the first to be beautiful, and had therefore
attracted all the beauty that passed by, as a lighthouse attracts
the vessels from the four corners of the horizon. Some there are who
complain of women, for instance, never dreaming that, the first time a
man meets a woman, a single word or thought that denies the beautiful
or profound will be enough to poison for ever _his existence_ in
her soul. ‘For my part,’ said a sage to me one day, ‘I have never
come across a single woman who did not bring to me something that was
great.’ He was great himself first of all; therein lay his secret.
There is one thing only that the soul can never forgive; it is to have
been compelled to behold, or share, or pass close to an ugly action,
word, or thought. It cannot forgive, for forgiveness here were but
the denial of itself. And yet with the generality of men, ingenuity,
strength and skill do but imply that the soul must first of all be
banished from their life, and that every impulse that lies too deep
must be carefully brushed aside. Even in love do they act thus, and
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