Women -- Suffrage -- Great Britain -- Fiction; World War, 1914-1918 -- Great Britain -- Fiction
She herself had never tried to think of a word for it before; she was
only driven to it now because she detected in her friend's tone a
challenge and a warning. It was as if Rosalind's mother had said,
extensively and with pointed reference to the facts: "Veronica is
dangerous. Her mother has had adventures. She is grown-up and she is
good-looking, and Nicky is susceptible to that sort of thing. If you
don't look out he will be caught again. The only difference between
Phyllis Desmond and Veronica is in their skins."
So when Frances said Veronica was good, she meant that Mrs. Jervis
should understand, once for all, that she was not in the least like her
mother or like Phyllis Desmond.
That was enough for Mrs. Jervis. But it was not enough for Frances, who
found her mind wandering off from Rosalind's mother and looking for the
word of words that would express her own meaning to her own
satisfaction.
Her thoughts went on deep down under the stream of conversation that
flowed through her from Mrs. Jervis on her right hand to Mrs. Vereker
and Mrs. Norris on her left.
Veronica was good. But she was not wrapped up in other people's lives as
Frances was wrapped up. She was wrapped up, not in herself, but in some
life of her own that, as Frances made it out, had nothing in the world
to do with anybody else's.
And yet Veronica knew what you were feeling and what you were thinking,
and what you were going to do, and what was happening to you. (She had
really known, in Dresden, what was happening to Nicky when Desmond made
him marry her.) It was as if in her the walls that divide every soul
from every other soul were made of some thin and porous stuff that let
things through. And in this life of yours, for the moments that she
shared it, she lived intensely, with uncanny delight and pain that were
her own and not her own.
And Frances wanted some hard, tight theory that would reconcile these
extremes of penetration and detachment.
She remembered that Ferdinand Cameron had been like that. He saw things.
He was a creature of queer, sudden sympathies and insights. She supposed
it was the Highland blood in both of them.
Mrs. Vereker on her right expressed the hope that Mr. Bartholomew was
better. Frances said he never would be better till chemists were
forbidden to advertise and the _British Medical Journal_ and _The
Lancet_ were suppressed. Bartie would read them; and they supplied him
with all sorts of extraordinary diseases.
She thought: Seeing things had not made poor Ferdie happy; and Veronica
in her innermost life was happy. She had been happy when she came back
from Germany, before she could have known that Nicky cared for her,
before Nicky knew it himself.
Supposing she had known it all the time? But that, Frances said to
herself, was nonsense. If she had known as much as all that, why should
she have suffered so horribly that she had nearly died of it?
Unless--supposing--it had been his suffering that she had nearly
died of?
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