Women -- Suffrage -- Great Britain -- Fiction; World War, 1914-1918 -- Great Britain -- Fiction
"You could have done what you can do now. You could have married me. And
we would have had three years of each other."
"You mean three centuries. There was a reason why we couldn't manage
it."
"There wasn't a reason. There isn't any reason now.
"Look here--to-day's Wednesday. Will you marry me on Friday if I get
leave and a licence and fix it up tomorrow? We shall have three days."
"Three days." She seemed to be saying to herself that for three
days--No, it wasn't worth while.
"Well, three months perhaps. Perhaps six, if my rotten luck doesn't
change. Because, I'm doing my level best to make it change. So, you see,
it's got to be one thing or another."
And still she seemed to be considering: Was it or was it not worth
while?
"For God's sake don't say you're going to make conditions. There really
isn't time for it. You can think what you like and say what you like and
do what you like, and wear anything--wear a busby--I shan't care if
you'll only marry me."
"Yes. That's the way you go on. And yet you don't, say you love me. You
never have said it. You--you're leaving me to do all that."
"Why--what else have I been doing for seven years? Nine years--ten
years?"
"Nothing. Nothing at all. You just seem to think that I can go off and
get married to a man without knowing whether he cares for me or not.
"And now it's too late. My hands are all dirty. So's my
face--filthy--you mustn't--"
"I don't care. They're your hands. It's your face. I don't care."
The chin-strap, the absurd chin-strap, fretted his mouth. He laughed. He
said, "She takes her hat off when she goes into a scrimmage, and she
keeps it on _now_!"
She loosened the strap, laughing, and threw her hat, the hat of a
Canadian trooper, on to the floor. His mouth moved over her face, over
her hair, pressing hard into their softness; his arms clasped her
shoulders; they slipped to her waist; he strained her slender body fast
to him, straight against his own straightness, till the passion and the
youth she had denied and destroyed shook her.
He said to himself, "She _shall_ come alive. She _shall_ feel. She
_shall want_ me. I'll make her. I should have thought of this ten
years ago."
Her face was smooth; it smiled under the touch of his mouth and hands.
And fear came with her passion. She thought, "Supposing something
happens before Friday. If I could only give myself to him
now--to-night."
Then, very gently and very tenderly, he released her, as if he knew what
she was thinking. He was sorry for her and afraid. Poor Dorothy, who had
made such a beastly mess of it, who had come alive so late.
She thought, "But--he wouldn't take me that way. He'd loathe me if he
knew."
Yet surely there was the same fear in his eyes as he looked at her?
* * * * *
They were sitting beside each other now, talking quietly. Her face and
hands were washed clean; as clean, she said, as they ever would be.
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