Women -- Suffrage -- Great Britain -- Fiction; World War, 1914-1918 -- Great Britain -- Fiction
He had been honest with his father about it; every bit as honest as
Nicky had been. He had wanted to travel if he could go to China and
Japan, just as Nicky had wanted to travel if he could go to places like
the West Indies and the Himalaya. And he didn't mind trying to get the
trees in when he was there. He was even prepared to accept Germany and
the School for Forestry if Germany was the only way to China and Japan.
But he had told his father not to mind if nothing came of it at the end
of all the travelling. And his father had said he would take the risk.
He preferred taking the risk to giving up his idea.
And Michael had been honest with himself. He had told himself that he
too must take some risks, and the chances were that a year or two in
Germany wouldn't really hurt him. Things never did hurt you as much as
you thought they would. He had thought that Cambridge would do all sorts
of things to him, and Cambridge had not done anything to him at all. As
for Oxford, it had given him nearly all the solitude and liberty he
wanted, and more companionship than he was ever likely to want. At
twenty-two Michael was no longer afraid of dying before he had finished
his best work. In spite of both Universities he had done more or less
what he had meant to do before he went to Germany. His work had not yet
stood the test of time, but to make up for that he himself, in his
uneasy passion for perfection, like Time, destroyed almost as much as he
created. Still, after some pitiless eliminations, enough of his verse
remained for one fine, thin book.
It would be published if Lawrence Stephen approved of the selection.
So, Michael argued, even if he died to-morrow there was no reason why he
should not go to Germany to-day.
He was too young to know that he acquiesced so calmly because his soul
was for a moment appeased by accomplishment.
He was too young to know that his soul had a delicate, profound and
hidden life of its own, and that in secret it approached the crisis of
transition. It was passing over from youth to maturity, like a
sleep-walker, unconscious, enchanted, seeing its way without seeing it,
safe only from the dangers of the passage if nobody touched it, and if
it went alone.
Michael had no idea of what Germany could and would do to his soul.
Otherwise he might have listened to what Paris had to say by way of
warning.
For his father had given him a fortnight in Paris on his way to Germany,
as the reward of acquiescence. That (from Herr Harrison's point of view)
was a disastrous blunder. How could the dear old Pater be expected to
know that Paris is, spiritually speaking, no sort of way even to South
Germany? He should have gone to Brussels, if he was ever, spiritually
speaking, to get there at all.
And neither Anthony nor Frances knew that Lawrence Stephen had plans for
Michael.
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