The two men, then, remained silent for a long time. In the darkness
beneath him, the priest could not possibly have seen K. distinctly,
although K. was able to see him clearly by the light of the little
lamp. Why did the priest not come down? He had not given a sermon, he
had only told K. a few things which, if he followed them closely, would
probably cause him more harm than good. But the priest certainly seemed
to mean well, it might even be possible, if he would come down and
co-operate with him, it might even be possible for him to obtain some
acceptable piece of advice that could make all the difference, it
might, for instance, be able to show him not so much to influence the
proceedings but how to break free of them, how to evade them, how to
live away from them. K. had to admit that this was something he had had
on his mind quite a lot of late. If the priest knew of such a
possibility he might, if K. asked him, let him know about it, even
though he was part of the court himself and even though, when K. had
criticised the court, he had held down his gentle nature and actually
shouted at K.
"Would you not like to come down here?" asked K. "If you're not going
to give a sermon come down here with me." "Now I can come down," said
the priest, perhaps he regretted having shouted at K. As he took down
the lamp from its hook he said, "to start off with I had to speak to
you from a distance. Otherwise I'm too easily influenced and forget my
duty."
K. waited for him at the foot of the steps. While he was still on one
of the higher steps as he came down them the priest reached out his
hand for K. to shake. "Can you spare me a little of your time?" asked
K. "As much time as you need," said the priest, and passed him the
little lamp for him to carry. Even at close distance the priest did not
lose a certain solemnity that seemed to be part of his character. "You
are very friendly towards me," said K., as they walked up and down
beside each other in the darkness of one of the side naves. "That makes
you an exception among all those who belong to the court. I can trust
you more than any of the others I've seen. I can speak openly with you."
"Don't fool yourself," said the priest. "How would I be fooling myself?"
asked K. "You fool yourself in the court," said the priest, "it talks
about this self-deceit in the opening paragraphs to the law. In front of
the law there is a doorkeeper. A man from the countryside comes up to
the door and asks for entry. But the doorkeeper says he can't let him in
to the law right now. The man thinks about this, and then he asks if
he'll be able to go in later on. 'That's possible,' says the doorkeeper,
'but not now.' The gateway to the law is open as it always is, and the
doorkeeper has stepped to one side, so the man bends over to try and
see in. When the doorkeeper notices this he laughs and says, 'If you're
tempted give it a try, try and go in even though I say you can't.
Careful though: I'm powerful.
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