I'm greatly afraid it won't do, but anyway I don't want to leave
anything untried; if I don't last out you can always get somebody else.
To be honest, this matter interests me too much, and I can't bring
myself to give up the chance of taking some part in it. If my heart does
totally give out then at least it will have found a worthy affair to
fail in." K. believed he understood not a word of this entire speech, he
looked at his uncle for an explanation but his uncle sat on the bedside
table with the candle in his hand, a medicine bottle had rolled off the
table onto the floor, he nodded to everything the lawyer said, agreed to
everything, and now and then looked at K. urging him to show the same
compliance. Maybe K.'s uncle had already told the lawyer about the
trial. But that was impossible, everything that had happened so far
spoke against it. So he said, "I don't understand...." "Well, maybe I've
misunderstood what you've been saying," said the lawyer, just as
astonished and embarrassed as K. "Perhaps I've been going too fast. What
was it you wanted to speak to me about? I thought it was to do with your
trial." "Of course it is," said K.'s uncle, who then asked K., "So what
is it you want?" "Yes, but how is it that you know anything about me and
my case?" asked K. "Oh, I see," said the lawyer with a smile. "I am a
lawyer, I move in court circles, people talk about various different
cases and the more interesting ones stay in your mind, especially when
they concern the nephew of a friend. There's nothing very remarkable
about that." "What is it you want, then?" asked K.'s uncle once more,
"You seem so uneasy about it." "You move in this court's circles?" asked
K. "Yes," said the lawyer. "You're asking questions like a child," said
K.'s uncle. "What circles should I move in, then, if not with members of
my own discipline?" the lawyer added. It sounded so indisputable that K.
gave no answer at all. "But you work in the High Court, not that court
in the attic," he had wanted to say but could not bring himself to
actually utter it. "You have to realise," the lawyer continued, in a
tone as if he were explaining something obvious, unnecessary and
incidental, "you have to realise that I also derive great advantage for
my clients from mixing with those people, and do so in many different
ways, it's not something you can keep talking about all the time. I'm at
a bit of a disadvantage now, of course, because of my illness, but I
still get visits from some good friends of mine at the court and I learn
one or two things. It might even be that I learn more than many of those
who are in the best of health and spend all day in court. And I'm
receiving a very welcome visit right now, for instance." And he pointed
into a dark corner of the room. "Where?" asked K., almost uncouth in
his surprise. He looked round uneasily; the little candle gave off far
too little light to reach as far as the wall opposite. And then,
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