Criminals -- Fiction; Social problems -- Fiction; United States -- Social conditions -- 1865-1918 -- Fiction
"I don’t know what it is," she confided to Marriott the first time she
saw him. "I ought to be of some use in the world, but I’m not--Oh,
don’t say I am," she insisted when she caught his expression; "don’t
make the conventional protest. It’s just as I told you before I went
away, I’m useless." She glanced over the drawing-room in an inclusive
condemnation of the luxury represented by the heavy furniture, the
costly bric-à-brac, and all that. Her face wore an expression of
weariness. She knew that she had not expressed herself. What she was
thinking, or, rather, what she was feeling was, perhaps, the
disappointment that comes to a spirited, imaginative, capable girl, who
by education and training has developed ambitions and aspirations toward
a real, full, useful life, yet who can do nothing in the world because
the very conditions of that existence which give her those advantages
forbid it. Prepared for life, she is not permitted to live; an
artificial routine called a "sphere" is all that is allowed her; she may
not realize her own personality, and, in time, is reduced to utter
nothingness.
"By what right--" she resumed, but Marriott interrupted her.
"Don’t take that road; it will only make you unhappy."
"Before I went abroad," she went on, ignoring the warning, "I told you
that I would do something when I came back--something to justify myself.
That’s selfish, isn’t it?" She ended in a laugh. "Well, anyway," she
resumed, "I can look up the Koerners. You see the Koerners?"
"I haven’t tried that case yet," Marriott said with a guilty expression.
"How dreadful of you!"
"Reproach me all you can," he said. "I must pay some penance. But, you
know--I--well, I didn’t try it at the spring term because Ford wanted to
go to Europe, and then--well--I’m going to try it right away--soon."
The next morning, as Marriott walked down town, he determined to take up
the Koerner case immediately. It was one of those mild and sunny days
of grace that Nature allows in the mellow autumn, dealing them out one
by one with a smile that withholds promise for another, so that each
comes to winter-dreading mortals as a rare surprise. The long walk in
the sun filled Marriott with a fine delight of life; he was pleased with
himself because at last he was to do a duty he had long neglected. He
sent for Koerner, and the old man came on a pair of new yellow crutches,
bringing his wife and his enormous pipe.
"Well, Mr. Koerner," said Marriott, "I’m glad you’re about again. How
are you getting along?"
"Vell, ve get along; I bin some goodt yet, you bet. I can vash--I sit
up to dose tubs dere undt help der oldt voman."
Marriott’s brows knotted in a perplexity that took on the aspect of a
mild horror. It required some effort for him to realize this old man
sitting with a wash-tub between his knees; the thought degraded the
leonine figure. He wished that Koerner had not told him, and he
hastened to change the subject.
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