Criminals -- Fiction; Social problems -- Fiction; United States -- Social conditions -- 1865-1918 -- Fiction
They did pass finally, and a morning came when he could leave the
comrades of his misery. He felt some regret in doing this; many of them
had been kind to him, and friendships had been developed by means of
whispers and signs, but more by the silent influence of a common
suffering. He had quarreled and almost fought with some of them, for
the imprisonment had developed the beast that was in them, and had made
many of them morose, ugly, suspicious, dangerous, filling them with a
kind of moral insanity. But he forgot all these enmities in the joy of
his release, and he bade his friends good-by and wished them luck. In
the superintendent’s office they gave him back his clothes, and he went
out again into the world.
It was strange to be at liberty again. His first unconscious impulse
was to take up his life where he had left it off, but he did not know
how to do this. For behind him stretched an unknown time, a blank, a
break in his existence, which refused to adjust itself to the rest of
his life; it bore no relation to that existence which was himself, his
being, and yet it was there. The world that knew no such blank or break
had gone on meanwhile and left him behind, and he could not catch up
now. He was like a man who had been unconscious and had awakened with a
blurred conception of things; it was as if he had come out of a profound
anæsthesia, to find that he had been irrevocably maimed by some
unnecessary operation in surgery.
Archie did not, of course, realize all this clearly; had he been able to
do so, he might have avoided some of the consequences. But he had a
troubled sense of change, and he was to learn it and realize it fully
only by a slow, torturing process, a bit at a time. He had the first
sensation of this change in the peculiar gleam that came into the eye of
a policeman he passed in Market Place, and he felt it, too, when, half
fearfully, he presented himself at the back door of his home. His
father’s fury had long since abated, but he showed that he could not
look on Archie as he once had done, and Gusta showed it, too. Bostwick
may have thought he had sentenced Archie to forty days in prison, but he
had really sentenced him to a lifetime in prison; for the influences of
those forty days could never leave Archie now; the shadows of that
prison were ever lengthening, and they were for evermore to creep with
him wherever he went, keeping him always within their shades. He was
thereafter to be but an umbra at the feast of life.
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