England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction; Love stories; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction
"I won't distress you," I began. "I will only ask leave, before we
change the subject, to put one question to you about the cottage and the
lake."
As the fatality that pursued us willed it, it was _her_ turn now to be
innocently an obstacle in the way of our discovering each other.
"I can tell you nothing more to-night," she interposed, rising
impatiently. "It is time I put the child to bed--and, besides, I can't
talk of things that distress me. You must wait for the time--if it ever
comes!--when I am calmer and happier than I am now."
She turned to enter the bed-chamber. Acting headlong on the impulse of
the moment, I took her by the hand and stopped her.
"You have only to choose," I said, "and the calmer and happier time is
yours from this moment."
"Mine?" she repeated. "What do you mean?"
"Say the word," I replied, "and you and your child have a home and a
future before you."
She looked at me half bewildered, half angry.
"Do you offer me your protection?" she asked.
"I offer you a husband's protection," I answered. "I ask you to be my
wife."
She advanced a step nearer to me, with her eyes riveted on my face.
"You are evidently ignorant of what has really happened," she said. "And
yet, God knows, the child spoke plainly enough!"
"The child only told me," I rejoined, "what I had heard already, on my
way here."
"All of it?"
"All of it."
"And you still ask me to be your wife?"
"I can imagine no greater happiness than to make you my wife."
"Knowing what you know now?"
"Knowing what I know now, I ask you confidently to give me your hand.
Whatever claim that man may once have had, as the father of your child,
he has now forfeited it by his infamous desertion of you. In every sense
of the word, my darling, you are a free woman. We have had sorrow enough
in our lives. Happiness is at last within our reach. Come to me, and say
Yes."
I tried to take her in my arms. She drew back as if I had frightened
her.
"Never!" she said, firmly.
I whispered my next words, so that the child in the inner room might not
hear us.
"You once said you loved me!"
"I do love you!"
"As dearly as ever?"
"_More_ dearly than ever!"
"Kiss me!"
She yielded mechanically; she kissed me--with cold lips, with big tears
in her eyes.
"You don't love me!" I burst out, angrily. "You kiss me as if it were a
duty. Your lips are cold--your heart is cold. You don't love me!"
She looked at me sadly, with a patient smile.
"One of us must remember the difference between your position and mine,"
she said. "You are a man of stainless honor, who holds an undisputed
rank in the world. And what am I? I am the deserted mistress of a thief.
One of us must remember that. You have generously forgotten it. I must
bear it in mind. I dare say I am cold. Suffering has that effect on me;
and, I own it, I am suffering now."
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