The Two Sides of the ShieldYonge, Charlotte M. (Charlotte Mary)
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The Two Sides of the Shield
Yonge, Charlotte M. (Charlotte Mary)
Domestic fiction; England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction
‘Oh! I didn’t think they were that,’ said Dolores, ‘for it was true that
father did not leave anything with me for Uncle Alfred. And I did not
know whether it was me whom he saw at Darminster. I did tell you one
once, Aunt Lily, when you asked if I gave Constance a note. At least,
she gave it to me, and not I to her. Indeed, I don’t tell falsehoods,
Aunt Lily--I mean I never did at home, but Constance said everybody said
those sort of things at school, and that one was driven to it when one
was---’
‘Was what, my dear?’
‘Tyrannized over,’ Dolores got out.
‘Ah! Dolly, I am afraid Constance was no real friend. It was a great
mistake to think her like Miss Hacket.’
‘And now she has sent back all my notes, and won’t look at me or speak
to me,’ and Dolores’s tears began afresh.
‘It is very ungenerous of her, but very likely she will be very sorry to
have done so when her first anger is over, and she understands that you
were quite as much deceived as she was.’
‘But I shall never care for her again. It is not like Mysie, who never
stopped being kind all the time--nor Gillian either. I shall cut her
next time!’
‘You should remember that she has something to forgive. I don’t want you
to be intimate with her but I think it would be better if, instead of
quarrelling openly, you wrote a note to say that you were deceived and
that you are very sorry for what you brought on her.’
‘I should not have gone on with it but for her and Her stupid poems!’
‘Can you bear to tell me how it all was, my dear? I do not half
understand it.’
And on the way home, and in Lady Merrifield’s own room Dolores found
it a relief to pour forth an explanation of the whole affair, beginning
with that meeting with Mr. Flinders at Exeter, of which no one had
heard, and going on to her indignation at the inspection of her letters;
and how Constance had undertaken to conduct her correspondence, ‘and
that made it seem as if she must write to some one,’--so she wrote to
Uncle Alfred. And then Constance, becoming excited at the prospect of
a literary connection, all the rest followed. It was a great relief to
have told it all, and Lady Merrifield was glad to see that the sense of
deceit was what weighed most heavily upon her niece, and seemed to have
depressed her all along. Indeed, the aunt came to the conclusion
that though Dolores alone might still have been sullen, morose and
disagreeable, perhaps very reserved, she never would have kept up
the systematic deceit but for Constance. The errors, regarded as sin,
weighed on Lady Merrifield’s mind, but she judged it wiser not to press
that thought on an unprepared spirit, trusting that just as Dolores had
wakened to the sense of the human love that surrounded her, hitherto
disbelieved and disregarded, so she might yet awake to the feeling of
the Divine love and her offence against it.
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