To leave London to its mob of journalists and stock-brokers, and to the demons of the pavement; to go there where there are none of these things, where miracles are sometimes allowed to happen; where God and Nature are more, not less, than man, and where courage, even in these days, counts as a virtue. If, indeed, as sometimes he feared, the brute in him was supreme and indestructible, London was not the place for him. London! Every stone of its pavement marked the grave of a human soul. But he would still be good for something out there. There were things there that wanted doing; things that he could do; things that men died in doing. Reason said: Why not go and do them? And if he died! Well, what can a man do more than die for his country? And if Molly died? Molly would not die. Something told him that. But he might break her heart if he went. Yes; and he would certainly break his promises if he stayed. Stanistreet was right there. Her words came back to him: "It's all over and done with now." Was it? Was it? Reason said: It was better to risk a possibility than face a certainty. Reason? Ah, no! It was Nature rather, the inscrutable Sphinx, repeating her stale old riddle, the answer to which is Man. A sound of laughter roused him from his communings with Reason. The lights were going up one by one along the Embankment. In an embrasure of the parapet a woman was leaning back against the low wall; she was looking at him, and laughing open-mouthed. She stood near a gas-standard, on the outer edge of an illuminated disc. Her face, painted and powdered, flushed faintly in the perishing light. He thought her magnificently beautiful. He came forward and was about to speak to her. The woman moved quickly into the bright center of the disc; she turned her face sideways as she moved, and he saw in it a sudden likeness to Molly. The likeness was fugitive, indefinable; something in the coloring, the line of the forehead, the sweep of the black hair from the cheek; it might have been a trick of the gaslight or of his own brain. But it was there; he saw it, an infernal reincarnation of his wife's dead beauty. And as he swerved out of her path the woman's laughter went after him, with a ring in it of irony and triumph. CHAPTER XXI OUT OF THE NIGHT That evening as he sat in his wife's bedroom--the perfunctory sitting, lasting usually about a quarter of an hour--the thought took complete possession of him. What if he went out to the Soudan? Other fellows were going; they could never have too many. Men dropped off there faster than their places could be filled. And if he died, as other fellows died? Well, death was the supreme Artist's god from the machine, the simplest solution of all tragic difficulties.