It was almost a relief to turn back to that other outlook and watch the
village life that was now beginning to wake in earnest. The procession
of water-fetchers had formed itself in a long chattering line that
stretched river-wards. Comus wondered how many tens of thousands of
times that procession had been formed since first the village came into
existence. They had been doing it while he was playing in the
cricket-fields at school, while he was spending Christmas holidays in
Paris, while he was going his careless round of theatres, dances, suppers
and card-parties, just as they were doing it now; they would be doing it
when there was no one alive who remembered Comus Bassington. This
thought recurred again and again with painful persistence, a morbid
growth arising in part from his loneliness.
Staring dumbly out at the toiling sweltering human ant-hill Comus
marvelled how missionary enthusiasts could labour hopefully at the work
of transplanting their religion, with its homegrown accretions of
fatherly parochial benevolence, in this heat-blistered, fever-scourged
wilderness, where men lived like groundbait and died like flies. Demons
one might believe in, if one did not hold one’s imagination in healthy
check, but a kindly all-managing God, never. Somewhere in the west
country of England Comus had an uncle who lived in a rose-smothered
rectory and taught a wholesome gentle-hearted creed that expressed itself
in the spirit of “Little lamb, who made thee?” and faithfully reflected
the beautiful homely Christ-child sentiment of Saxon Europe. What a far
away, unreal fairy story it all seemed here in this West African land,
where the bodies of men were of as little account as the bubbles that
floated on the oily froth of the great flowing river, and where it
required a stretch of wild profitless imagination to credit them with
undying souls. In the life he had come from Comus had been accustomed to
think of individuals as definite masterful personalities, making their
several marks on the circumstances that revolved around them; they did
well or ill, or in most cases indifferently, and were criticised,
praised, blamed, thwarted or tolerated, or given way to. In any case,
humdrum or outstanding, they had their spheres of importance, little or
big. They dominated a breakfast table or harassed a Government,
according to their capabilities or opportunities, or perhaps they merely
had irritating mannerisms. At any rate it seemed highly probable that
they had souls. Here a man simply made a unit in an unnumbered
population, an inconsequent dot in a loosely-compiled deathroll. Even
his own position as a white man exalted conspicuously above a horde of
black natives did not save Comus from the depressing sense of nothingness
which his first experience of fever had thrown over him. He was a lost,
soulless body in this great uncaring land; if he died another would take
his place, his few effects would be inventoried and sent down to the
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