German fiction -- Translations into English; Germany -- Fiction; Sin -- Fiction
Now the ice was really broken, and when the apple fritters arrived,
frizzling crisply in their juice, Hertha thought the atmosphere was
favourable for her great question. Still she struggled twice with
herself before she was sure that she could combine the right moment
with the right words. For she felt that her friend's new smile did not
mean joking.
"There's one thing I want to ask you," she began, in a careless, casual
sort of tone, though there was a choking sensation in her throat.
"Wives love their husbands ... that's taken for granted; but do you
think it's possible that wives ... can be ... loved by men--men who are
not their husbands?"
Her friend didn't smile this time, but laughed outright, and Hertha
felt a stone fall from her heart. Here was some one who was not going
to be shocked, she thought.
"How funny you are," Meta said. "No one can prevent people loving whom
they choose."
"I know.... But a man, don't you see, ought not----"
"No; he _ought_ not, but often does."
"Does any one else love _you_, then?"
Meta coloured. She looked into space. Perhaps she was thinking of the
man who had first captured her maiden fancy.
"I don't ask," she said. "It is more than enough that I please Hans;
and, of course, I shouldn't allow anything of the kind."
"Then it isn't allowed?"
"Of course not, when they tell you so straight out."
"What? Do they ever tell it?"
"Often. It happens if the man is a very bold lover."
"Good gracious!" exclaimed Hertha, in horror. "If such a thing happened
to me, I should show him the door pretty quick."
Then she became suddenly silent. She was asking herself the question,
"What might _he_ have said to her? What might she have answered?"
"Would it be possible," she inquired again eagerly, "for there to be
women ... who--who wouldn't mind?"
"Oh yes," replied Meta.
"Who in the end might return such a bold man's love?"
"Yes; even that."
The world seemed to spin round in Hertha's brain, and with all the
energy of innocence she cried, "Meta, I won't believe it!"
"There is a good deal that you would not believe, that I now know to be
facts."
"Tell me, tell me. What, please?"
"No; most of it can't be told," said her friend, guardedly. "Not to any
one, at least, who is not married."
Hertha thought of the vow they had once exchanged, but an undefinable
feeling of shyness stopped her from reminding the forgetful Meta of it.
"All I can tell you," she continued, "is that things are very different
from what we girls think they are. Do you remember, for instance, how
all our heads were turned once about your uncle?"
"Which uncle?" asked Hertha.
"Leo Sellenthin," replied Meta, glancing sideways.
Hertha sighed. She was only too willing to forget the relationship
which gave him authority over her. And then, all at once, her heart
seemed to stand still, for she understood that the next minute would be
pregnant for her with revelation. She was to hear something terrible.
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