England -- Fiction; Mothers and daughters -- Fiction
She shut the window, bolted it, and returning to the hall collected her
mother's coat and hat, then she went upstairs.
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Her head ached badly, as it did pretty often these days. She put away
Mrs. Ogden's things and passed on to her own room. Taking off her heavy
coat, she hung it up neatly, being careful not to shut the door of the
cupboard until she was sure that the coat could not be crushed; then she
took off her hat, brushed it, and put it in a cardboard box under the
bed.
The room had changed very little since the time when she and Milly had
shared it. There was the same white furniture, only more chipped and
yellower, the same Brussels carpet, only more patternless and
threadbare. The walls had been repapered once and the paint touched up,
after Milly's death, but beyond this, all had remained as it was. Joan
went to the dressing-table and combed her thick grey hair; she had given
up parting it on one side now and wore it brushed straight back from her
face.
She looked at her reflection in the glass and laughed quietly. "Poor
Mother," she said under her breath. "Does she really think I don't look
my age?"
To the casual observer she looked about forty-eight, in reality she was
forty-three. Her grey eyes still seemed young at times, but their colour
had faded and so had their expression of intelligent curiosity. The eyes
that had once asked so many questions of life, now looked dull and
uninterested. Her cheeks had grown somewhat angular, and the clear
pallor of her skin had thickened a little; it no longer suggested good
health. In all her face only the mouth remained as a memory of what Joan
had been. Her mouth had neither hardened nor weakened, the lips still
retained their youthful texture and remained beautiful in their
modelling. And because this mouth was so startlingly young and fresh,
with its strong, white teeth, it served all the more to bring into
relief the deterioration of the rest of her face. Her figure was as slim
as it had been at twenty-four, but now she stooped a little at times,
because her back hurt her; she thought it must be rheumatism, and
worried about it disproportionately.
She had taken to thinking a great deal about her health lately, not
because she wanted to, but rather because she was constantly assailed by
small, annoying symptoms, all different and all equally unpleasant. Her
legs ached at night after she got to bed, and feeling them one evening
she discovered that the veins were swollen; at times they became acutely
painful. She seldom got up now refreshed by sound sleep, there was no
joy in waking in the mornings; on the contrary, she had grown to dread
the pulling up of the blind, because her eyes felt sensitive, especially
after the night.
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