England -- Fiction; Mothers and daughters -- Fiction
THE Ogdens took their annual holiday in May, in order to avoid the high
prices of the summer season. For a full month prior to their departure,
a feeling of unrest always possessed them. The numbers of things, real
and imaginary, that had to be settled before they could leave for
Lynton, in North Devon, augmented year by year, until they had arrived
at dimensions that only a prolonged visit to Kamchatka or Zanzibar could
possibly excuse. Joan found that as the years went on she was beginning
to subscribe more and more to her mother's fussiness; even beginning to
acquire certain fussinesses of her own. Sometimes the realization of
this made her pause. "I never used to care so much about trifles," she
would think. But she found it almost impossible to stop caring. She
would lie awake at night going over in her mind the obstacles to be
overcome before they could leave Seabourne, and would go to sleep
finally with a weight on her brain. In the morning she would wake
wondering what unpleasant thing it was that hung over the household.
This brief visit to Lynton generally caused much worry regarding
clothes. Everything seemed to be worn out at once, and the necessity for
replenishing scanty wardrobes was added to the financial strain of the
holiday. Mrs. Ogden had decided that rooms were both objectionable and
expensive, and that unless she could go to an hotel she would rather
stay at home. In some respects Joan was thankful for this decision;
constant quarrels with outspoken landladies had made her dread anything
in the nature of apartments. But the expense was considerable, for the
Bristol Hotel was not cheap, even though they took the smallest bedrooms
available, or, worse still, shared a tiny double room at the back of the
house. They pinched and screwed for this longed-for holiday during all
the rest of the year, and at times Joan wondered whether the respite of
three weeks at an hotel away from Seabourne was worth the anxiety that
it entailed; whether, when she was finally there, she was not too tired
to enjoy it.
As the month of departure drew near Mrs. Ogden was wont to develop an
abnormal activity of mind. All the things that might so easily have been
spread out over the preceding months seemed only to be remembered a few
weeks prior to going away, and what did not exist to be remembered she
invented. It would also have been more natural and orderly had wreaths
been taken to the cemetery on the anniversaries of her husband's and
Milly's deaths, but this was never done, and their graves were always
visited shortly before leaving for Lynton.
"I can't go away without seeing for myself that those cemetery people
are looking after things properly," was the explanation she gave.
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