England -- Fiction; Mothers and daughters -- Fiction
"But, Joan," his voice was eager, "we could do such splendid things
together; if you won't have me for myself will you have me because of
the work? I can help you to get away; I can help you to make a career.
Oh, Joan, do listen! I know I could do it; I'll be a doctor and you'll
be a doctor, we'll be partners--Joan, do say 'Yes.'"
She almost laughed, it struck her that it was like a nursery game of
make-believe. "I'll be a doctor and you'll be a doctor!" It sounded so
funny; she visualized the double plate on their door front: "Doctor
Richard Benson," and underneath: "Doctor Joan Benson." But she reached
again for his hand and stroked it gently as if she were soothing a
little brother whose house of bricks she had inadvertently knocked down.
"I'm not the marrying sort," she said.
"God knows _what_ you are, then!" he burst out rudely. Then his eyes
filled with tears.
"Oh, Richard!" she implored, "don't stop being my friend, don't refuse
to help me just because I can't give you what you want."
Now it was his turn to laugh ruefully. "You may not be the marrying
sort," he said, "but you're a real woman for all that; you look at
things from a purely feminine point of view."
"Perhaps I do," she acquiesced. "And that means that I'm being utterly
selfish, I suppose; but I need your friendship--can I have it?"
"Oh, I suppose so," he said with some bitterness. "But you won't really
need it, you know, for you never mean to break away."
She flushed. "Don't say it!" she exclaimed. "I forbid you to say it!"
"Well," he told her, "if you mean to, it's time you began to get a move
on. If you won't take me, then for God's sake take something, anything,
only don't let Seabourne take you."
3
On the way home Joan told Elizabeth. They stopped and faced each other
in the road.
"And you said----?" Elizabeth asked.
"I said 'No,'" replied Joan. "What did you think I'd say?"
"No!" said Elizabeth, and she smiled. Then, "I wonder if you'll be
surprised to hear that I had a proposal too, last week?"
Joan opened her lips but did not speak. Elizabeth watched her.
"Yes," she said. "I had a proposal from Lawrence. It seems to run in the
family, but mine was very impressive. I felt it carried the weight of
the whole Bank of England behind it. It sounded very safe and
comfortable and rich, I was almost tempted----" She paused.
"And what did you say, Elizabeth."
Elizabeth came a step nearer. "I said I was too busy just now to get
married; I said I was too busy thinking of someone I cared for very much
and of how they could get free and make a life of their own."
"You said that, Elizabeth?"
"Yes. Does it surprise you? That's what I said--so you see, Joan, you
mustn't fail me."
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