What confronted the boy most immediately was, of course, the city. All
the rest was new perhaps. But its newness was a growth, and that which
had gone before had subliminally taught him what such growth must be.
New York, however, as he now received it, was unheralded and
unanticipated. Mornings, as he went downtown, its acerb qualities
entered him most forcibly. This was due perhaps to the night’s influence
upon himself in opening his spiritual pores, making him more sensitive,
since more alien, to the city’s nature. But also, doubtless, the early
drubbing itself awake from the miasma of its sleep calls to the surface
in the morning the City’s essences.
Quincy’s heart misgave him in these first trials. He hung on a strap in
the elevated train. The shaken condiment of sluggish bodies and drowned
voices and falsetto-screaming newspapers was like a plaster for drawing
out his strength. As they lurched on, the cadenced rise and fall of the
train’s pace grew to be a hammer on his consciousness. The streets
hurled by in a drab monotone whose single, ugly accent could be no other
than that of a fierce indifference. The crowd congealed within itself, a
maze of cluttered energies, having no mind. And as the mournful streets
struck past, a tithe of the crowd leaked out, mute, sullen, while those
remaining gave no flash of interest. None of the murmurous expectancy of
a crowd turned to adventure, none of the resilient interplay of
personality transfigured the dull mass. A community this was! The iron
car and the vile brick houses moved. _It_ seemed to rot! Quincy felt
lonely unto pain in it. So cruel the silences of the woods had never
been, as this inert cacophony of union.
And then, the sequel, as the train swung on, leaving him behind at the
place which irony called his “destination.” The huddled, nervous,
slack-eyed flow churned by some unknown design between the dizzy walls
of offices and there absorbed as if to add by their own crushed spirit
to the towers of brick and mortar. The poisonous sense of innumerable
little cells--like the one to which he went--where all this half-quick
matter was laid out, agitant yet fixed like flies in the shifting scum
of stagnant waters. A pulp it was for the increasing of the City.
Quincy thought of the innumerable living things of the sea whose rotted
bones made up the chalk cliffs of England. So, it appeared to him, had
the City come to be. For what other than some such passion, inexorable
and perverse, could explain the blind din of traffic merging into the
barriers of buildings--monuments all to work’s travesty, where the pride
of labor was shrunk to an interminable lamentation?
Each morning, at first, these things gripped Quincy while his heart
forsook him. So that he found it hard to go, hard to bear, easy to fall
away.
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