And then, again, came an unaccountable impulse. Adelaide had put out her
arms. His impulse was to rush within them. It was as if he would cover
many wounds, if he did that. He thought of this. And in the instant of
thinking, doubt slipped within--doubt and the looming presence of the
house, the memory of those within it, of what they were to him and of
that which they had done. He must guard himself against a fresher
wound--one of a sort different from this which Adelaide had bandaged. He
must beware. He must consider the tribe of Adelaide, with her seeming
love and her eyes that feigned a plea. He must remember the
impossibility of this which appeared to be before him--the impossibility
of love, of understanding; the reality of disillusion. He must cut
through this day-dream....
There was a cloud of resolution. With it, the boy’s face hardened. He
turned about and limped upstairs--like a wounded wild thing, afraid with
returned vigor, of the good Samaritan that had succored it.
And Adelaide sank back to her chair. She forgot to remove the signs of
Quincy’s accident. She forgot to knit. She remembered her father and
Rhoda. And then, her breast rose stertorously, and she began to sob. For
what she had felt, she understood.
* * * * *
The family returned early in September to New York. For Josiah and Rhoda
had strong within them a country family’s lust for the City. And with
the first burning of the leaves in autumn, they missed the streets and
the traffic and the theatres and the hotel-lobbies. Nor was Marsden
loth. He was able to move about New York, in their motor; he was able
even to visit Broadway since the Burt finances made feasible the
purchase of a theatre-box. But Marsden did not care really for these. He
preferred New York to the country, with the first burning of the leaves
in autumn, merely because he had just been in the country. By Christmas,
he would welcome a visit to Atlantic City or Bermuda; by April, he would
again be longing for the mountains. The Burt family never summered at
the sea-shore. It was too like Long Island. And so, the big house near
Central Park, where the leaves die greyly instead of burning out, was
made ready. And Quincy was hurried back--so it seemed to him--to live
the year’s most passionate season in the City.
All of the summer, the mark had remained of the strange encounter with
Adelaide and with the woods. He had avoided the woods, he had been shy
with Adelaide. Several times, they walked forth together. But the girl’s
efforts to make a breach in his world had been avail-less. They had
marched on, silent for the most part; helpless utterly. And Nature was
very far away.
She had ached for inspiration and she had failed. She blamed herself.
Adelaide was no tactician. When she forced activity on her desire, she
was even less expressive than when it lay painfully quiescent within her
heart.
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