For a week more, Quincy bore this tyranny to which his prowess had
subjected him. And then, calmly, bravely, he quit. He was not aware of
the heroism of his act. And to be sure, there was no voice nor mind
about him so to paint it. What he had done was cowardly, perverse,
vicious and monstrous in the light of this new world. There was no
possible alternative in viewpoint.
He had told the captain that he loved to run, but that he did not wish
to make sprinting the master of his time and soul. The captain had
smiled knowingly.
“I know it’s hard. But you have to, Burt. It’s the way.”
“Well--I’d rather not.”
The captain looked at him sharply. “You got to, I say!”
“How do you mean--I got to?”
“You can’t keep on a team and not practice every day. And not train all
the time.”
And the man had walked off, not dreaming of a further protest.
Quincy, then, came close to the truth. There was something sacred,
almost prayerful in running. It was the service of the trees and brooks.
The strain of his muscles, the pant of his breath, the burn of his eyes,
the hewing-down by this fleet spirit within him of the world’s
resistances, came to him as romance, as worship. And to yoke this
splendor to an affair of points and team-work seemed sacrilege. He
could run when he wished. He had now learned the glory of that. He
would not prostitute his best delight.
He broke training and failed to report.
The captain called on him. There was a stormy half-hour, in which the
captain showed his native lights and talked much of treachery to one’s
college. And so, Quincy was _queered_.
At the fall fraternity elections, he was left out. He knew that he had
been marked for slaughter. The majority of his class now evinced
nervousness at talking to him. They had fallen off as quickly as they
had first rushed to accept him. He had committed the unpardonable sin.
He stood there, in their midst, as a rebuke to their standards and
activities--as an _individual_--as one who prized his pleasure and
rejected the college shibboleth of “doing something.” There was no
health in him. And there was danger of being associated with him, if one
were seen too much about with him. Elections came. And Quincy,
courageous as he had been in the lists of decision, was too young to
smile and too weak not to suffer.
But a firm idea had been implanted in his soul; and a great gift given
it. Each afternoon now, in the days that came before the snow, and while
he should have been sprinting for his Alma Mater, he went out in the
sparse woods beyond the field and ran and raced with his own spirit.
This was the gift that had been given him. The idea was one of
criticism. He began to see the poverty of this college scope, to deplore
the lack of a real, free romanticism in its routine and aspirations. He
longed for the opportunity to talk with Professor Deering. But the
Professor taught only upperclassmen.
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