The Varieties of Religious Experience: A Study in Human NatureJames, William
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The Varieties of Religious Experience: A Study in Human Nature
James, William
Conversion; Experience (Religion); Philosophy and religion; Psychology, Religious; Religion
“This moment was a frightful one; and when towards morning I threw
myself exhausted on my bed, I seemed to feel my earlier life, so
smiling and so full, go out like a fire, and before me another
life opened, sombre and unpeopled, where in future I must live
alone, alone with my fatal thought which had exiled me thither,
and which I was tempted to curse. The days which followed this
discovery were the saddest of my life.”(93)
In John Foster’s Essay on Decision of Character, there is an account of a
case of sudden conversion to avarice, which is illustrative enough to
quote:—
A young man, it appears, “wasted, in two or three years, a large
patrimony in profligate revels with a number of worthless
associates who called themselves his friends, and who, when his
last means were exhausted, treated him of course with neglect or
contempt. Reduced to absolute want, he one day went out of the
house with an intention to put an end to his life; but wandering
awhile almost unconsciously, he came to the brow of an eminence
which overlooked what were lately his estates. Here he sat down,
and remained fixed in thought a number of hours, at the end of
which he sprang from the ground with a vehement, exulting emotion.
He had formed his resolution, which was, that all these estates
should be his again; he had formed his plan, too, which he
instantly began to execute. He walked hastily forward, determined
to seize the first opportunity, of however humble a kind, to gain
any money, though it were ever so despicable a trifle, and
resolved absolutely not to spend, if he could help it, a farthing
of whatever he might obtain. The first thing that drew his
attention was a heap of coals shot out of carts on the pavement
before a house. He offered himself to shovel or wheel them into
the place where they were to be laid, and was employed. He
received a few pence for the labor; and then, in pursuance of the
saving part of his plan, requested some small gratuity of meat and
drink, which was given him. He then looked out for the next thing
that might chance; and went, with indefatigable industry, through
a succession of servile employments in different places, of longer
and shorter duration, still scrupulous in avoiding, as far as
possible, the expense of a penny. He promptly seized every
opportunity which could advance his design, without regarding the
meanness of occupation or appearance. By this method he had
gained, after a considerable time, money enough to purchase in
order to sell again a few cattle, of which he had taken pains to
understand the value. He speedily but cautiously turned his first
gains into second advantages; retained without a single deviation
his extreme parsimony; and thus advanced by degrees into larger
transactions and incipient wealth. I did not hear, or have
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