Mary Lowther, though she had never encountered condemnation as a
husband-hunter, had learned all this, and was well aware that for her
there was but one future mode of life that could be really blessed.
She had eyes, and could see; and ears, and could hear. She could
make,--indeed, she could not fail to make,--comparisons between
her aunt and her dear friend, Mrs. Fenwick. She saw, and could not
fail to see, that the life of the one was a starved, thin, poor
life,--which, good as it was in its nature, reached but to few
persons, and admitted but of few sympathies; whereas the other woman,
by means of her position as a wife and a mother, increased her roots
and spread out her branches, so that there was shade, and fruit, and
beauty, and a place in which the birds might build their nests. Mary
Lowther had longed to be a wife,--as do all girls healthy in mind and
body; but she had found it to be necessary to her to love the man who
was to become her husband. There had come to her a suitor recommended
to her by all her friends,--recommended to her also by all outward
circumstances,--and she had found that she did not love him! For a
while she had been sorely perplexed, hardly knowing what it might
be her duty to do, not understanding how it was that the man was
indifferent to her, doubting whether, after all, the love of which
she had dreamt was not a passion which might come after marriage,
rather than before it,--but still fearing to run so great a hazard.
She had doubted, feared, and had hitherto declined,--when that other
lover had fallen in her way. Mr. Gilmore had wooed her for months
without touching her heart. Then Walter Marrable had come and had
conquered her almost in an hour. She had never felt herself disposed
to play with Mr. Gilmore's hair, to lean against his shoulder, to be
touched by his fingers,--never disposed to wait for his coming, or
to regret his going. But she had hardly become acquainted with her
cousin before his presence was a pleasure to her; and no sooner had
he spoken to her of his love, than everything that concerned him was
dear to her. The atmosphere that surrounded him was sweeter to her
than the air elsewhere. All those little aids which a man gives to a
woman were delightful to her when they came to her from his hands.
She told herself that she had found the second half that was needed
to make herself one whole; that she had become round and entire in
joining herself to him; and she thought that she understood well why
it had been that Mr. Gilmore had been nothing to her. As Mr. Fenwick
was manifestly the husband appointed for his wife, so had Walter
Marrable been appointed for her. And so there had come upon her a
dreamy conviction that marriages are made in heaven. That question,
whether they were to be poor or rich, to have enough or much less
than enough for the comforts of life, was, no doubt, one of much
importance; but, in the few happy days of her assured engagement, it
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