Then came demands upon him for amounts trusted to him to invest--a
regular continuous drain; and Rhoda awoke to the fact that a change in
their position, for the worse, was rapidly coming on.
She bore the knowledge as cheerfully as she could, working hard to
comfort her father, bidding him not trouble about her, but to pay to the
uttermost farthing every demand.
"I shall not mind being poor," she said to him, but she felt that she
did not know all, and after long thought and trouble the feeling would
always come upon her that she must leave all to fate, for she could not
make her future even if she tried.
There was something very suggestive in John Tregenna's manner to her
now. He was never, in the slightest degree, effusive. If any thing, he
was rather cold, but at times there was a look in his eye that told her
he was waiting his time; and more than once, in the bitterness of her
spirit, she had thought of the possibility of his some day asking her
again to be his wife.
What should she say if he did?
No! The answer came readily enough, for a pang shot through her as she
thought of Geoffrey Trethick, and wondered whether she could forgive him
for the wrong he had done. She loved him still. She knew that, and in
time--perhaps even now, if he came to her in humbleness and confessed
his fault--she could have said forgiving words. Her pride would have
forbidden her to listen to him. There was forgiveness.
But that was all. He had been set up in the innermost niche of her
heart--an idol whom she had worshipped. From thence he had fallen, and
as the idol lay broken she had seen that what she thought sterling gold
was but miserable potter's clay.
Still there was her love for him--the love once roused never to be
completely crushed out. It burned still upon the altar before the empty
niche. The idol was gone, and a soft vapour rose concealing the
emptiness of the place--a place made often more dim and indistinct by
her moistened eyes.
If he had only come to beg forgiveness she would not have cared, but he
had taken up his stubborn stand, and to the very last time they had met
his eyes looked at her with an angry defiance that made her heart beat
fast with rage.
It was from no curiosity--there was not even a faint hope of meeting
Geoffrey--that she took that path, but a trick of fate, and she started
and turned pale, on suddenly raising her eyes, to see that she was only
some fifty yards from Prawle's cottage.
Bessie was standing by the door knitting, and the blood flushed into
Rhoda's cheeks as she saw what was by her side.
She saw that Bessie had seen her, and to have gone back would have
looked cowardly; so she kept on, feeling pretty sure that at that time
of day Geoffrey Trethick would not be there.
"I have not been to see you for a long time now, Bessie," said Rhoda,
making an effort to master her emotion and look calm.
"No, miss. My mother has often said she wished you would come. Will
you go in and see her?"
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