England -- Fiction; Interpersonal relations -- Fiction
It took the place in her imagination of “perilous seas in faery lands
forlorn.” She never passed a tobacco shop without a thrill of memory,
and she saw, far down the vista of the years, a kindred moment for
herself. It was with the aspect of Miss Strickland’s light blue eyes and
trim, erect figure (the rest of her appearance was not very impressive)
that Elsie supposed Venus had arisen from the sea. (The blue serge coat
and skirt which invariably accompanied Miss Strickland, no doubt adhered
to her later.)
Miss Strickland was as beautiful as Venus, as grand as Queen Victoria,
as wise as Minerva. As far as Elsie was concerned, wisdom would die with
Miss Strickland. When Onoria said “That’s settled,” Elsie would rather
have disputed the last trump.
It had taken two years of dumb and invisible worship before Elsie had
dared to make this final bid for the notice of her goddess.
She knew it was final: if Miss Strickland had turned her away, she would
have sunk like a stone to the bottom of her despair. She would never
have attempted to move again. Life would have gone on all round her, but
she would not have lived. She was living now; every breathless moment of
her terrible lesson she had lived—ardour and agony combined in her. She
felt that she was moving as swiftly as the Scotch express—sparks were
flying out from the tension of her silence.
“Well,” said Miss Strickland, “you’ve had over your hour—and I think
I’ve told you enough to go on with. You haven’t talent, but don’t let
that discourage you, I never believe in little girls with talent; work
produces ability up to a certain point. There is no such thing as a
woman genius and never will be.”
Elsie looked at her in surprise.
“But you—” she murmured. “Surely you are a genius?”
“Nonsense,” said Miss Strickland, flushing half with annoyance and half
with a feeling that was not annoyance.
“I am nothing of the kind. I am merely a very hard-working person with
the natural advantages of a good ear and light fingers.”
Elsie could not believe this and she looked as if she could not believe
it; but she said nothing.
“Now run along,” said Miss Strickland briskly but not unkindly. You
cannot be unkind to a person who will not believe that you are not a
genius.
Elsie went out of the music room with her head held up and her eyes
sparkling.
Miss Strickland did not immediately ring the bell to summon her next
pupil. She felt unaccountably stirred.
“A very ordinary little girl,” she said to herself reassuringly. “A
_most_ ordinary little girl. Still I will see if something can’t be done
with her. The poor child has been shamefully neglected by some woman no
doubt. Women are the most destructive force in existence, or I should
rather say weakness. Force is creative and appertains to man. Women are
destructive because they have no force; they destroy by the conscious
exercise of their weakness.”
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
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