England -- Fiction; Interpersonal relations -- Fiction
Samson was not an accessory either before or after the fact, and it was
a fact which had postponed his tea, and to which he would therefore have
definitely refused his consent if consulted.
She opened the door and Samson flew past her and consumed loudly and
without hesitation Prendergast’s neglected dinner.
Prendergast had not wanted his dinner, and he did not want it now, but
still less did he wish to see a low cat indulging itself with his sacred
rites. There had always been a state of armed neutrality between the two
animals: neither was strong enough to wholly destroy the other, so they
wisely avoided combat, but they were not friends.
Prendergast growled feebly from his basket, and gazed at his mistress
expecting her instant and effectual intervention, but Miss Strickland
sank down on a chair beside him with all her things on and her hands in
her lap.
Bridget had let the fire go out and Prendergast shivered sharply to
remind Onoria to relight it. What had she come home for if not to
relight the fire and restore comfort? But still she did not raise her
eyes—she murmured “There, there,” and “Poor old Prendie—” but her mind
was not on him. She was sitting in a curiously bowed position, as if
something within her was refusing to fight.
Samson finished the last mouthful of Prendergast’s meal, wiped his
whiskers ostentatiously in front of the basket and disappeared lightly
through a back window. He was quite willing to eat a meal in Miss
Strickland’s house but he had no intention of giving her the benefit of
his company in return.
A person who kept a moribund pug in a basket was hardly the kind of
society a cat of Samson’s standing in the neighbourhood would care to
choose as a friend.
Miss Strickland did not notice the defection of Samson; she did not for
a long while notice anything. There was an inward drama in her heart
which held her whole attention.
Something implored her to let her pride go, and keep her friends. It
told her that she was getting old and had few earthly ties, that Elsie
was dearer to her than she knew, and even Peter was a treasured habit
left over from the richer years, and that if she used her anger too
ruthlessly against them she would be condemning herself to perpetual
loneliness.
One cannot make new ties at fifty-three, too much of life has gone, too
many hopes have passed into too many memories.
One cannot explain oneself to new friends, and they cannot know how the
early generosities and charms of our characters have staled and wearied
with the weight of time.
They do not excuse our scars or realise our finished struggles. How can
they dream that our egoism was once a winged idealism set to reach the
stars? That our irritability was a vivacity of intellect condemned to a
provincial vocabulary, that even our dogmatism is but an old loyalty
stiffened into bad temper?
It is in middle age that we most need the mercy of a contemporary, and
the memory of a friend.
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