"Leave it, for God’s sake," urged the man. "You’ll go mad at this gait.
One thing be just as absurd as t’other. Some innocent fool saw your
husband through the fog and shouted to him--perhaps just wished him a
merry season or some such thing--and then went on his way and thought no
more of it. Be sure you’ll hear the truth soon or late, and you’ll live
to see your men as well and hearty next January as they are now."
"You mean kindly to say these things," she answered. "But ’tis vain, and
you’ll know it afore the year’s gone."
"Well, give God Almighty a chance," he urged. "’Tis you will be dead,
not them, if you go on so."
They reached ’Meavy Cot’ and found Margaret. Her mother sat down, took
off her bonnet and rested, while Madge stood a few minutes at the gate
with Mr. Crocker before he started homeward.
"Try and cheer her up," he said. "’Tis that damned nonsense about the
voice at Crazywell. She’ll fret herself into her grave over it if this
goes on."
They discussed the matter for a while; then Madge spoke of Bartley
himself.
"Don’t know what to be at," he said. "My life’s stuck for the minute.
I can’t ask her again yet, and I’m not going till I have. Just once
more. But the thing is to know what to be doing meantime--how to get a
bit forwarder. How is she?"
"She’s all right--silenter than ever to me, though. Sometimes I think
she’s judging me rather hardly and don’t reckon I’m a very good wife for
David."
"I’m sure that can’t be. She’s a long way too sensible to imagine any
such nonsense."
"She may be right, all the same. I don’t know what it is; I wouldn’t
even name it to anybody but you and mother; but sometimes I feel as if
there was a door between me and David, and sometimes he tries to open
it, and I’m sure I’m always trying to, but it keeps shut."
"Stuff!" he repeated. "You’re such a parcel of nerves, Madge--like poor
Mrs. Stanbury. You mustn’t let yourself think such things. David’s
wrapped up heart and soul in you, and if ’tisn’t his way to show all he
feels, that’s only to say he’s a Bowden. They are built on that
fashion. You must try and look at life more with his eyes. He’s a rare
man and I envy him his tremendous power of sticking to a thing till he’s
got through with it. His ideas are big, not little; I can see that, and
you ought to see it. You and me are a bit too much alike there, and
’tis our luck not to be rated at our real value in consequence. But we
mustn’t repay in the same coin. Because David don’t quite understand
you, and Rhoda don’t understand me, we, who are nimbler-witted than
them, mustn’t be cross. They may not see the truth of us and all the
virtues that we’ve got--and we’ve both got a rare lot in my opinion--but
we do see the truth of them, and so we must be patient with their
characters."
It was a new light to the woman, and she perceived the wisdom under his
jesting manner.
"If he’d only let me into his secrets!" she said.
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