"I suppose all of us have had our dream-flowers at one time or another," he
replied quietly. "And then the frost has come along and scotched them. But
I forgot!"--with a short laugh. "You're one of the people who believe that
if you think and believe them hard enough, your dreams will come true,
aren't you? I remember your flinging that bit of philosophy in my face the
first time we met--at the Kursaal."
"Yes," she acquiesced. "But if you haven't any, they can't come true, can
they?"
"I don't imagine that what we hope or think makes any perceptible
difference," he said shortly.
"That's because you're a cynic! I think it makes _all_ the difference.
Robin and I are a concrete example of it. We've always wanted to live
together--we hung on to the thought in our minds all the time circumstances
kept us apart. And now, you see, here we are--doing precisely what we
wanted to do."
"I see that you're a very good advocate," he replied smiling. And then
Robin came out of the house and joined them and the conversation drifted
away on to more general lines.
It was late in the afternoon before Coventry finally proposed taking his
way homeward--so late that Robin suggested he might as well make it still
later and stay to dinner with them. Rather to Ann's surprise he consented,
and, in spite of his assertion, earlier on, that he "preferred his own
company," he seemed thoroughly to enjoy the little home-like _dîner à
trois_. There was something about the cosy room and the gay, good-humoured
chaff and laughter of brother and sister which conveyed a sense of
welcome--partaking of that truest kind of hospitality which creates no
special atmosphere of ceremony for a guest but encompasses him with a
frank, informal friendliness.
Perhaps, as Maria moved briskly in and out, changing the plates and dishes,
and not forbearing to smile benignly upon her young master and mistress if
she chanced to catch the eye of one or other of them, some swift perception
of the pleasant, simple homeliness of it all woke Eliot to comparisons, for
just as he was leaving he said with characteristic abruptness:
"Thank you both immensely. To-night's been a great contrast to my usual
evenings in that great empty barrack of a dining-room at Heronsmere."
Unconsciously he spoke out of a great loneliness, and Ann's heart ached for
this supremely hurt and bitter soul which sought security from further hurt
behind the iron barriers of a self-imposed reserve and solitude.
Presently the sweet summer dusk, fragrant of herb and flower, enfolded them
as they stood together at the Cottage gate. A sudden silence had fallen
between them. Ann tried to break it, utter some commonplace, but no words
would come. At length he held out his hand, and, as hers slid within it, he
spoke with a curiously tender gravity.
"Good-bye," he said. "Don't let the cynics spoil the world for you. I hope
you'll find your happy garden--whoever doesn't."
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