She fancied he concealed a smile in the darkness.
"Not very complimentary of you," he answered composedly.
"It wasn't, was it? I'm so sorry," she agreed in eager haste. "Have you
come to see Robin? I'm afraid he's out. He said he should be back rather
late to-night."
"No," he replied evenly, "I've not come to see Robin." Then, with a sudden
leap in his voice: "I came to see you, Ann."
"To see me?" she murmured confusedly.
"Yes. Am I to tell you all about it out here in the cold, or may I come
in?"
Without waiting for her answer, he quietly lifted the latch which had
refused to move for her trembling fingers, and silently, half in a dream,
she led the way into the house.
There was no light in the living-room other than that yielded by the logs
which burned on the open hearth, but even by their flickering glow she
could discern how much he had altered since she had last seen him. He was
thinner, and his face had the worn look of a man who has recently passed
through some stern mental and spiritual conflict. There were furrows of
weariness deeply graven on either side the mouth, and Ann felt her heart
swell within her in an overwhelming impulse of tenderness and longing to
smooth away those new lines from the beloved face. Before she knew it, that
imperative inner need had manifested in unconscious gesture. Her hands went
out to him as naturally and instinctively as the hands of a mother go out
to her hurt child.
But he did not take them in his. Instead, he seemed almost to draw away
from her, his hands slowly clenching as though the man were putting some
immense compulsion of restraint upon himself.
"I've come back, Ann," he said slowly. "I've come back."
Her outstretched hands dropped to her sides. She was trembling, but she
forced herself into speech.
"Why did you go?" she asked very low.
"I went--to see if I could live without you, to try and put you out of my
life.... And I can't do it." He spoke with a curious deliberation. "If ever
a man fought against love, I fought against it. I'd done with love--it's
the thing I've cut out of my plan of life these ten years." His mouth
twisted wryly as if even yet the memory of the past had power to stab him.
"I distrusted love. And I distrusted you." He stopped abruptly, still
conveying that impression of a man forcibly holding himself in check.
"And--and now?" Ann's voice was almost inaudible.
They had been standing very still, held motionless and apart by a strange
intensity of feeling, but unconsciously she had drawn closer to him as she
spoke. As though her instinctive little movement towards him snapped the
last link of the iron control he had been forcing on himself, he suddenly
bent forward, and, snatching her up into his arms, held her crushed against
his breast, kissing her with the overwhelming passion of a man who has been
denied through dreary months of longing. Heedless of past or future, Ann
yielded, surrendering with her lips the whole brave young heart of her.
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