Eliot had been conscious of a curious intermingling of feeling. The very
sight of Tony, bringing with it, as it did, a quickened rush of torturing
remembrance, filled him with a kind of insensate fury. He wanted to strike
the friendly, good-humoured smile off the boy's face. And yet, underneath
the burning anger and resentment which he felt, he was fain to acknowledge
the rank injustice of it. Tony had done him no deliberate wrong, and,
ignorant of the fact that indirectly his was the agency which had brought
Eliot's happiness crashing to the ground, his open-hearted attitude of
friendliness was the most natural thing in the world. Moreover, Eliot
admitted to himself that had things been otherwise he would have felt quite
disposed to reciprocate Tony's evident good-fellowship. The boy had a
distinct charm of his own, and he had liked what little he had seen of him
at Silverquay. But, circumstances being as they were, he opposed a quiet
indifference to Tony's friendly overtures, although with characteristic
obstinacy he declined to be driven out of Mentone by the fact of the other
man's presence there.
Sometimes the Brabazons had visitors--Lady Doreen, Neville and her mother,
and on these occasions Eliot derived a certain misanthropic amusement out
of watching the incipient love affair which was obviously budding between
the two young people--a development which, he could see, was clearly
a source of satisfaction to at least one of their respective elderly
relatives. Doreen's mother was all smiles. She had other daughters coming
on.
That Tony and Doreen Neville were rapidly drifting towards the condition
known as being in love was unmistakable, and Eliot envied the pliant
facility of youth which can put the past behind and embark so soon upon
a new adventure. Surely a man who had once believed himself in love with
Ann--Ann, with her warm vitality and pluck and humour--could never be
satisfied with the frail beauty and helpless, clinging sweetness which was
all that Lady Doreen had to offer! Ann was not an easy person to forget, as
Eliot knew to his own most bitter cost. Yet Brabazon seemed able to forget.
God! If only the faculty of forgetting were purchasable!...
* * * * *
The waiter sped swiftly forward and deposited Eliot's coffee on the table
by his side, rousing him out of his bitter reflections with a jolt.
"You've been an unconscionable time!" he flung at the man irritably, and
then smiled wryly at his own irritability. His nerve must be going! A
French newspaper lay on the table at his elbow. Drawing it towards him he
deliberately immersed himself in its pages to the exclusion of the thoughts
which were torturing him.
It was thus that Tony found him an hour later when he strolled into the
_salle_, looking somewhat at a loose end and rather sorry for himself.
"Going to the tables to-night?" he asked, pausing irresolutely at Eliot's
side.
Eliot glanced up.
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