The Wanderer; or, Female Difficulties (Volume 1 of 5)Burney, Fanny
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The Wanderer; or, Female Difficulties (Volume 1 of 5)
Burney, Fanny
France -- History -- Revolution, 1789-1799 -- Refugees -- Fiction; Historical fiction; Refugees -- Fiction; War stories
In about half an hour, Mrs Howel's maid came to enquire whether Miss
Ellis would have any thing brought up stairs for supper; Mrs Howel
having broken up the usual evening party, in order to induce Lady
Aurora, who was extremely fatigued, to go to rest.
Not to rest went Ellis, after such a message, though to that bed which
had brought to her, of late, the repose of peace and contentment, and
the alertness of hope and pleasure. A thousand schemes crossed her
imagination, for averting the desertion which she saw preparing, and
which her augmenting attachment to Lady Aurora, made her consider as a
misfortune that would rob her of every consolation. But no plan occurred
that satisfied her feeling without wounding her dignity: the first
prompted a call upon the tender heart of Lady Aurora, by unlimited
confidence; the second, a manifestation how ill she thought she merited
the change of treatment that she experienced, by resentfully quitting
the house: but this was no season for the smallest voluntary hazard. All
chance of security hung upon the exertion of good sense, and the right
use of reason, which imperiously demanded active courage with patient
forbearance.
She remitted, therefore, forming any resolution, till she should learn
that of Mrs Howel.
It was now the first week of February, and, before the break of day, a
general movement in the house gave her cause to believe that the family
was risen. She hastened to dress herself, unable to conjecture what she
had to expect. The commotion continued; above and below the servants
seemed employed, and in haste; and, in a little time, some accidental
sounds reached her ears, from which she gathered that an immediate
journey to London was preparing.
What could this mean? Was she thought so intruding, that by change of
abode alone they could shake her off? or so dangerous, that flight,
only, could preserve Lady Aurora from her snares? And was it thus, she
was to be apprized that she must quit the house? Without a carriage,
without money, and without a guide, was she to be turned over to the
servants? and by them turned, perhaps, from the door?
Indignation now helped to sustain her; but it was succeeded by the
extremest agitation, when she saw, from her window, Lord Melbury
mounting his horse, upon which he presently rode off.
And is it thus, she cried, that all I thought so ingenuous in goodness,
so open in benevolence, so sincere in partiality, subsides into neglect,
perhaps forgetfulness?--And you, Lady Aurora, will you, also, give me up
as lightly?
She wept. Indignation was gone: sorrow only remained; and she listened
in sadness for every sound that might proclaim the departure which she
dreaded.
At length, she heard a footstep advance slowly to her chamber, succeeded
by a tapping at her door.
Her heart beat with hope. Was it Lady Aurora? had she still so much
kindness, so much zeal?--She flew to meet her own idea--but saw only the
lady of the house.
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