British -- India -- Fiction; India -- History -- British occupation, 1765-1947 -- Fiction
She departed with dignity, and the rest did not dare to laugh until
she was out of hearing. Then Fitz took the lead in the conversation
again, and talked away until Dr Tighe appeared suddenly and haled him
back to the hospital. Mabel was disappointed--bitterly disappointed.
She had felt certain that he would perceive a change in her, even
while she scouted the idea of allowing him to divine the cause of it,
but he had not seemed to think of her at all. However, he imagined, no
doubt, that he was consulting her wishes by ignoring their compact
altogether, and she consoled herself with thinking that things would
be different to-morrow. But they were not. Day after day Fitz paid his
afternoon visit to the courtyard, rattled away to Flora or Mrs Hardy
or herself, and seemed to desire nothing more. She was puzzled. Could
it be that he had actually forgotten their agreement, perhaps as a
result of some injury to his brain? But no; it was evident that his
mind was as clear as ever. What was it, then? Had he determined,
during those long hours in the hospital, to crush down and root out
the love which had met with so poor a return? Had her change of
feeling come too late? Or, worst of all, had he seen her character too
clearly in that last interview--had she shown herself in such colours
of hardness and ingratitude that he had now no desire to ask his
question again? Mabel writhed under the thought. Her one consolation
was in the assurance that he had not perceived the change in her. She
would die rather than let him know that her heart had warmed towards
him as his had cooled towards her; and yet--such is the inconsistency
of human nature--she felt it would kill her to go on in this way, and
she did not wish to die just yet. Even when he was alone with her,
there was nothing loverlike in his manner, and she felt bitterly that
the tables were turned. It was she who now listened in vain for any
softening in his voice, who longed to be allowed to do things for him,
and could not, for very shame, offer her services. At first she was
piqued by his behaviour, then hurt, at last made thoroughly miserable;
but she flattered herself that she hid her trouble from the world, at
least as well as Fitz had hitherto contrived to hide his. For this
reason it was a blow to discover one day that Mrs Hardy, who had been
exclusively occupied with Georgia for some time, was now at leisure to
think of other people’s affairs. She opened her attack without the
slightest warning beforehand.
“I don’t like to see you looking so doleful, Miss North,” she said
briskly, finding Mabel sitting idle, in a somewhat disconsolate
attitude.
“Why, do you think all our circumstances are so bright that I ought to
be cheerful too?” asked Mabel, roused to defend herself. Mrs Hardy
looked at her critically.
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