Among all the social comings and goings at the Leverichs’, the
excitement of Lawson’s presence held its place with Dosia. The sudden
sight of his olive profile and his lithe figure, his cool, appraising
gaze, his “Well, young lady?” with its ironic tone that yet conveyed a
subtle kindness, his lazy, caressing expostulation, “Why not, when we
are friends?”—these things made heart-beats that Dosia took pains to
assure herself were of a purely Platonic nature, when she stopped at
rare occasions to take tally of her emotions, though there was a
continual unacknowledged inner protest, in spite of her yielding, which
made her resolve each day to withdraw a little on the next. But they
never talked of love; they talked only of goodness, or art, or music, or
about the way you felt about different subjects, or little teasing
things, like why she drew her mouth down at the corners when he looked
at her, or why she had seemed to disapprove the night before. They were
bound together by the hope of higher things. She met him always in the
morning with the bright uplifting smile that said, “I know you will
repay my confidence—for _I_ believe in you!”
“I really wish Lawson would go away,” said Mrs. Leverich, one day, as
the two sat over their afternoon tea together.
“Why?” asked Dosia, with the suddenly concentrated composure his name
always brought her outwardly. “I thought you said last week that he had
improved so much.”
“Oh, yes, he’s had one of his good streaks lately; and he _is_ a sweet
fellow when he’s nice—he was the dearest _little_ boy! Lawson can twist
me around his little finger when he wants to; he knows that he can get
money out of me every time, even when he oughtn’t to have it. But he
can’t keep up this sort of thing long, you know, he is so restless;
there’s bound to be a breakdown afterwards. I dread it; the breakdowns
get worse, now, every time.”
“Perhaps there will be no breakdown, after all,” said Dosia, in an even
voice, but with that sudden deep sensation of disenchantment which his
sister’s words always brought to her, and which lay upon her spirit like
a living thing, dragging her fancy in chains. It was not alone Mrs.
Leverich’s words, either, that had this power; when anyone spoke of
Lawson it brought the same displeasing uneasiness, followed by the
wonted eager remorsefulness later, when she saw him. But through each
phase one foundational sense held good—he was not at all the kind of
man she would ever want to marry; the whole attraction of the situation
was in the fact that one could be so nobly intimate, and still keep off
the danger-ground. Once or twice he had seemed to be infringing on it,
and then she had turned him aside with sweet solemnity and additional
inner excitement.
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