At that instant, as Dosia stood on the landing, with one slippered foot
on the lower step, facing her little admiring world, somebody began to
come down the flight at the side with hurrying, stumbling feet. It was
Lawson in evening dress, his olive cheeks flushed, his eyes reckless.
The men who were watching knew at once that, in common parlance, he was
“not himself.” Dosia, her sweet eyes raised to meet his, only knew, with
a quick, half-frightened thrill, that he looked strangely unnatural. He
seemed to see no one but her, as he caught up to her, saying jovially:
“You can give me that other kiss now.”
[Illustration: _Somebody began to come down with hurrying, stumbling
feet_]
Did his hand but touch her white shoulder in that suggestion of vulgar
familiarity that branded her as with a hot iron in its scorching,
blinding shame? She could not blush, the blood had all gone to her
stricken heart and left her white as a snow wreath. Then Leverich sprang
up the steps and took Lawson by the arm, dragging him forcibly back into
the upper regions, as some of the guests began to descend. Dosia must go
in, helpless, toward those staring faces. Would no one come to her aid?
Justin? He had turned to speak to Lois. Billy Snow? His face was
averted, his eyes on the ground. Bailey Girard, her helper once, the
hero of her dreams, the man his friend had pledged for succor—Bailey
Girard stood motionless.
It was George Sutton who came forward and, placing her hand in his arm,
led her with old-fashioned courtesy to her place beside Mrs. Leverich.
The whole incident had taken barely a moment. Dosia stood up, pale and
graceful, artificially self-composed, greeting the many people who began
to pour in, smiling above the enormous bouquet of bride roses that she
held, and chatting in a high, thin voice. Her one immediate thought was
that she must stand up straight, as if nothing had happened—stand up
straight and talk.
“Has the girl no feeling?” thought Lois contemptuously. “Why, she did
not even blush!”
Feeling! If Lois had known of that corpse-like feeling of death in the
heart that Dosia strove to cover decently! What did those men think of
her, or those women who saw? What could they think her like, to have
given any man a right to act that way toward her? Yet, what had Lawson
done? Nothing. He had put his hand on her shoulder—he had asked her for
a kiss. That was all. It was nothing and it was everything—something
that could never be undone. Through the dancing, through the flirting,
through all the laughing and the talking the words repeated themselves.
What had happened? It was nothing—and it was everything. Each effort
for comfort brought with it that horrible, blinding shame to surge over
her more and more, as each time also she recalled the scene, the touch.
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