How could one interest a man like that? There was Eugene Larue—she
could interest him! The thought of him always gave her a sense of
conscious power; he paid her homage. She did not know what his relations
were with other women, but of his with her she was sure: she felt her
woman’s kingdom. If you could talk to the soul of a man like that as if
he had the soul of an angel, and learn from him what you wanted to
know—get his guidance—But Lois was before all things inviolably a
wife, with the instinctive dignity of one. The sympathy between her and
Eugene Larue was so deep that she feared sometimes that in some brief
moment she might reveal in words, to be forever regretted afterwards,
conditions which he knew without her telling. To be loved as Eugene
Larue would love a woman! But his wife had not cared to be loved that
way. Lois took deep, thoughtful counsel of her heart. If they two, she
and Eugene, had met while both were free? The answer was what she had
known it would be, else she had not dared to make the test—the man who
was her husband was the only man who could ever have been her husband.
Justin!
With “The Woman’s Kingdom” in her hand now, her lips touching the cheek
of the soft little darling thing beside her, she felt that some
knowledge had been gradually revealed to her, of which she was now
really aware only for the first time. Justin was not looking well—that
was what Dosia had said. Oh, he was not looking well! But she would make
him forget his cares, his anxieties, with this new-found power of hers;
she would bewitch him, take him off his feet, so that he would be able
to think of nothing, of no one, but her—he had not always thought of
her! No, no—she would not remember that, _she would not pity herself_.
She would learn to laugh, even if it took heroic effort—men liked you
to laugh, she had always taken everything too seriously. The vision of
his sleeping, _dead_ face of a month ago frightened her for a moment,
painfully; but he had seemed better since, though, as Dosia said, he
didn’t look well. Oh, when he came home to-night——!
She dressed herself with a new care, putting on a soft yellowish gown
with a yoke of creamy lace, unworn for months. The color was more
brilliant than ever in her cheeks, her lips redder, her eyes more deeply
blue. The children exclaimed over their “pretty mamma”; she looked
younger, more beautiful, than Dosia had ever seen her. The latter could
not help saying:
“How lovely you are, Lois! And you’re all dressed up, too; do you expect
anyone?”
“Only Justin,” said Lois.
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