There never had been any love-making, in the direct meaning of the term,
between John Wilmeter and Anna Updyke. They had known each other so long
and so intimately, that both regarded the feeling of kindness that each
knew subsisted, as a mere fraternal sort of affection. “Jack is Sarah’s
brother,” thought Anna, when she permitted herself to reason on the
subject at all; “and it is natural that I should have more friendship
for him than for any other young man.” “Anna is Sarah’s most intimate
friend,” thought Jack, “and that is the long and short of my attachment
for _her_. Take away Sarah, and Anna would be nothing to me; though she
is so pretty, and clever, and gentle, and lady-like. I must like those
Anna likes, or it might make us both unhappy.” This was the reasoning of
nineteen, and when Anna Updyke was just budding into young womanhood; at
a later day, habit had got to be so much in the ascendant, that neither
of the young people _thought_ much on the subject at all. The preference
was strong in each—so strong, indeed, as to hover over the confines of
passion, and quite near to its vortex; though the long accustomed
feeling prevented either from entering into its analysis. The
attachments that grow up with our daily associations, and get to be so
interwoven with our most familiar thoughts, seldom carry away those who
submit to them, in the whirlwind of passion; which are much more apt to
attend sudden and impulsive love. Cases do certainly occur in which the
parties have long known each other, and have lived on for years in a
dull appreciation of mutual merit—sometimes with prejudices and
alienation active between them; when suddenly all is changed, and the
scene that was lately so tranquil and tame becomes tumultuous and
glowing, and life assumes a new charm, as the profound emotions of
passion chase away its dulness; substituting hope, and fears, and lively
wishes, and soul-felt impressions in its stead. This is not usual in the
course of the most wayward of all our impulses; but it does occasionally
happen, brightening existence with a glow that might well be termed
divine, were the colours bestowed derived from a love of the Creator, in
lieu of that of one of his creatures. In these sudden awakenings of
dormant feelings, some chord of mutual sympathy, some deep-rooted
affinity is aroused, carrying away their possessors in a torrent of the
feelings. Occasionally, wherever the affinity is active, the impulse
natural and strongly sympathetic, these sudden and seemingly wayward
attachments are the most indelible, colouring the whole of the remainder
of life; but oftener do they take the character of mere impulse, rather
than that of deeper sentiment, and disappear, as they were first seen,
in some sudden glow of the horizon of the affections.
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