The effect of her refusal on the artist was singular in the extreme.
At first he trembled, in every limb, and I could distinctly see drops
of perspiration glistening on his brow. Then, as he realised all the
bitterness of his position, and that the lovely woman before him was
lost to him forever and ever, and that if they were to live a thousand
years on the earth she would still be as cold to him as she was at that
moment, he lifted his arms with a slow motion and extended them towards
her, and for some moments he maintained this position, petrified to
rigidity, staring at her with ghastly look and glassy eye. His attitude
was the very apotheosis of despair.
I marvelled at his emotion. My own sense of disappointment on hearing
Daphne express her determination to remain faithful to George was
exquisitely bitter, but, bitter as it was, it was apparently but a
tithe of the pain felt by the artist.
Several times he tried to speak, but no words came from his dry lips.
It was painful to see him going through the mockery of speaking, yet
unable to produce a sound. It was as if the dead, touched by some
galvanic apparatus, were trying to assume the mechanism of life, and
when at last he did speak his strange hollow voice aided the illusion.
"Miss Leslie, you surely cannot--cannot mean _that_!"
"Indeed I do," was the cold reply.
Scarcely able to keep his feet, the artist moved backward till he
touched the trunk of a tree, where he leaned for support. The sight of
his misery touched Daphne to the quick, and she cried impulsively:
"O Mr. Vasari, I am sorry for you; but I cannot love you. I cannot
forget George. Believe me, it pains me to have to say this. Try to
think it is for the best."
She placed her hand timidly on his arm; but he swung it off with so
dark an expression on his face that I had almost thrown myself between
them.
"I want not your pity," he exclaimed scornfully, turning the fire of
his eyes on her, "if I cannot have your love!"
And, ignoble at heart, he began now to sneer at the prize he found
beyond his reach.
"And so," he continued in a bitter tone, "rather than accept the love
of one who can immortalise you by his pencil you prefer to be a living
cenotaph whose sad aspect testifies the esteem set upon her by her
first lover!"
Dropping his sneering tone for one of fierce anger, he added:
"You must have some less fanciful reason for rejecting me than this
absurd attachment to--to a shadow. Tell me, do you not love another?"
"Mr. Vasari, you have no right to question me thus. You have received
your answer, and this meeting may as well end, since it seems now that
insult is to be my portion."
And she turned proudly to go.
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