He did not regard his sojourn at Seacliff with any lively anticipations.
It was pleasant to steam up and down the blue river between the sunlit
green shores, through the sweet odours from the woods and hedges
freshened and spiritualised by the full broad river. The morning swim in
the strong sea-water brought the sense of health and vigour and power
into his frame. The breakfast, ample, well cooked, appetising, with
blithe company, full of inspiriting talk and resolute happiness, in the
steamer's cabin, would cure a misanthrope and buoy the heart of a cynic.
The joyous solemnity of that cigar on deck afterwards would reconcile an
anchorite to comfort. Yet for all these advantages Henry Walter Grey did
not like his season at Seacliff.
The evening voyage was no less to be enjoyed. After the dust and worry
of the city's day it was good to feel the moist winds blowing through
your hair, against your forehead; to hear the cooling swirl of the water
at the bow, and the far-off wash of the steamer's swells upon the
shadowy shore; to watch the crimson sunset, and the coming of the
pale-blue stars, and the red moon that, slowly rising from the hot earth
to the limpid sky, grew mild and fair, while under it the white earth
sailed silent down the ocean of the dark; to feel the hallowed peace of
night ascending from earth to God.
But it ruined all to know in that cottage above the bay on the ledge of
red cliff one waited who was no companion, yet bound to him for life; to
know year by year the chasm between them widened; and that above that
chasm hung a spirit of evil, the bad angel of a terrible weakness, which
might at any moment become visible to all those standing by, and ruin
her, and bring on him pity--pity, that boneless scorn more unendurable
than contempt or loathing.
In the deep seclusion of the Manor, Grey felt the skeleton in his house
was pretty safely hidden; here in Seacliff there were innumerable
chances of discovery. It is more than likely he would not have gone to
Seacliff in the summer if by any possibility he could safely avoid it.
But all the well-off people of Daneford went every year to the little
town, and to depart from the custom would be to attract a dangerous
attention to himself and his household. It had been his custom of former
years to stay at Seacliff for three months of summer; but in the year
1866 he resolved to limit his stay to one month--the month of September.
When he and she were at home in the Manor House, she was more directly
under his control, immediately under his observation. But on leaving
Seacliff in the morning he was always weighed down by the dread that in
this little town of much gossip something might leak out while he was
away. She might go into the town, and in some incautious way betray her
fault, and destroy all the respect people felt for her--all the respect
they felt for his wife.
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