Lesbians -- England -- Social conditions -- Fiction
She lugged the bath-chair round with a jolt and trundled it, lurching,
towards the cottage. All the way back down the big north paddock
Williams wept and wailed and tried to get out, but his niece put one
hefty young hand on his shoulder; with the other she guided the lurching
bath-chair.
Stephen watched them go, then she turned to the groom. ‘Bury him here,’
she said briefly.
4
Before she left Morton that same afternoon, she went once more into the
large, bare stables. The stables were now completely empty, for Anna had
moved her carriage horses to new quarters nearer the coachman’s cottage.
Over one loosebox was a warped oak board bearing Collins’ stud-book
title, ‘Marcus,’ in red and blue letters; but the paint was dulled to a
ghostly grey by encroaching mildew, while a spider had spun a large,
purposeful web across one side of Collins’ manger. A cracked, sticky
wine bottle lay on the floor; no doubt used at some time for drenching
Collins, who had died in a fit of violent colic a few months after
Stephen herself had left Morton. On the window-sill of the farthest
loosebox stood a curry comb and a couple of brushes; the comb was being
eaten by rust, the brushes had lost several clumps of bristles. A jam
pot of hoof-polish, now hard as stone, clung tenaciously to a short
stick of firewood which time had petrified into the polish. But
Raftery’s loosebox smelt fresh and pleasant with the curious dry, clean
smell of new straw. A deep depression towards the middle showed where
his body had lain in sleep, and seeing this Stephen stooped down and
touched it for a moment. Then she whispered: ‘Sleep peacefully,
Raftery.’
She could not weep, for a great desolation too deep for tears lay over
her spirit—the great desolation of things that pass, of things that
pass away in our lifetime. And then of what good, after all, are our
tears, since they cannot hold back this passing away—no, not for so
much as a moment? She looked round her now at the empty stables, the
unwanted, uncared for stables of Morton. So proud they had been that
were now so humbled, even unto cobwebs and dust were they humbled; and
they had the feeling of all disused places that have once teemed with
life, they felt pitifully lonely. She closed her eyes so as not to see
them. Then the thought came to Stephen that this was the end, the end of
her courage and patient endurance—that this was somehow the end of
Morton. She must not see the place any more; she must, she would, go a
long way away. Raftery had gone a long way away—she had sent him beyond
all hope of recall—but she could not follow him over that merciful
frontier, for her God was more stern than Raftery’s; and yet she must
fly from her love for Morton. Turning, she hurriedly left the stables.
5
Anna was standing at the foot of the stairs. ‘Are you leaving now,
Stephen?’
‘Yes—I’m going, Mother.’
‘A short visit!’
‘Yes, I must get back to work.’
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