Lesbians -- England -- Social conditions -- Fiction
Their outward existence seemed calm and unruffled; so far nothing had
disturbed the outward peace of Morton. But their child saw their hearts
with the eyes of the spirit; flesh of their flesh, she had sprung from
their hearts, and she knew that those hearts were heavy. They said
nothing, but she sensed that some deep, secret trouble was afflicting
them both; she could see it in their eyes. In the words that they left
unspoken she could hear it—it would be there, filling the small gaps of
silence. She thought that she discerned it in her father’s slow
movements—surely his movements had grown slower of late? And his hair
was quite grey; it was quite grey all over. She realized this with a
slight shock one morning as he sat in the sunlight—it had used to look
auburn in the nape of his neck when the sun fell upon it—and now it was
dull grey all over.
But this mattered little. Even their trouble mattered little in
comparison with something more vital, with their love—that, she felt,
was the only thing that mattered, and that was the thing that now stood
most in danger. This love of theirs had been a great glory; all her life
she had lived with it side by side, but never until it appeared to be
threatened, did she feel that she had really grasped its true
meaning—the serene and beautiful spirit of Morton clothed in flesh,
yes, that had been its true meaning. Yet that had been only part of its
meaning for her, it had meant something greater than Morton, it had
stood for the symbol of perfect fulfilment—she remembered that even as
a very small child she had vaguely discerned that perfect fulfilment.
This love had been glowing like a great friendly beacon, a thing that
was steadfast and very reassuring. All unconscious, she must often have
warmed herself at it, must have thawed out her doubts and her vague
misgivings. It had always been their love, the one for the other; she
knew this, and yet it had been her beacon. But now those flames were no
longer steadfast; something had dared to blemish their brightness. She
longed to leap up in her youth and strength and cast this thing out of
her holy of holies. The fire must not die and leave her in darkness.
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