Lesbians -- England -- Social conditions -- Fiction
But sport was not all that drew Stephen to Martin, for his mind, like
hers, was responsive to beauty, and she taught him the country-side that
she loved, from Upton to Castle Morton common—the common that lies at
the foot of the hills. But far beyond Castle Morton she took him. They
would ride down the winding lane to Bromsberrow, then crossing the small
stream at Clincher’s Mill, jog home through the bare winter woods of
Eastnor. And she taught him the hills whose plentiful bosoms had made
Anna think of green-girdled mothers, mothers of sons, as she sat and
watched them, great with the child who should have been her son. They
climbed the venerable Worcestershire Beacon that stands guardian of all
the seven Malverns, or wandered across the hills of the Wells to the old
British Camp above the Wye Valley. The Valley would lie half in light,
half in shadow, and beyond would be Wales and the dim Black Mountains.
Then Stephen’s heart would tighten a little, as it always had done
because of that beauty, so that one day she said:
‘When I was a child, this used to make me want to cry, Martin.’
And he answered: ‘Some part of us always sheds tears when we see lovely
things—they make us regretful.’ But when she asked him why this should
be, he shook his head slowly, unable to tell her.
Sometimes they walked through Hollybush woods, then on up Raggedstone, a
hill grim with legend—its shadow would bring misfortune or death to
those it fell on, according to legend. Martin would pause to examine the
thorn trees, ancient thorns that had weathered many a hard winter. He
would touch them with gentle, pitying fingers:
‘Look, Stephen—the courage of these old fellows! They’re all twisted
and crippled; it hurts me to see them, yet they go on patiently doing
their bit—have you ever thought about the enormous courage of trees? I
have, and it seems to me amazing. The Lord dumps them down and they’ve
just got to stick it, no matter what happens—that must need some
courage!’ And one day he said: ‘Don’t think me quite mad, but if we
survive death then the trees will survive it; there must be some sort of
a forest heaven for all the faithful—the faithful of trees. I expect
they take their birds along with them; why not? “And in death they were
not divided.”’ Then he laughed, but she saw that his eyes were quite
grave, so she asked him:
‘Do you believe in God, Martin?’
And he answered: ‘Yes, because of His trees. Don’t you?’
‘I’m not sure—’
‘Oh, my poor, blind Stephen! Look again, go on looking until you do
believe.’
They discussed many things quite simply together, for between these two
was no vestige of shyness. His youth met hers and walked hand in hand
with it, so that she knew how utterly lonely her own youth had been
before the coming of Martin.
She said: ‘You’re the only real friend I’ve ever had, except Father—our
friendship’s so wonderful, somehow—we’re like brothers, we enjoy all
the same sort of things.’
He nodded: ‘I know, a wonderful friendship.’
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