Lesbians -- England -- Social conditions -- Fiction
They ran to obey, and before very long she had helped to lift him on to
the mattress. He groaned a little, then he actually smiled as he felt
her strong arms around him. She kept wiping the blood away from his
mouth, and her fingers were stained; she looked at her fingers, but
without comprehension—they could not be hers—like her thoughts, they
must surely be somebody else’s. But now his eyes were growing more
restless—he was looking for some one, he was looking for her mother.
‘Have you told Miss Puddleton, Williams?’ she whispered.
The man nodded.
Then she said: ‘Mother’s coming, darling; you lie still,’ and her voice
was softly persuasive as though she were speaking to a small, suffering
child. ‘Mother’s coming; you lie quite still, darling.’
And she came—incredulous, yet wide-eyed with horror. ‘Philip, oh,
Philip!’ She sank down beside him and laid her white face against his on
the pillow. ‘My dear, my dear—it’s most terribly hurt you—try to tell
me where it hurts; try to tell me, belovèd. The branch gave—it was the
snow—it fell on you, Philip—but try to tell me where it hurts most,
belovèd.’
Stephen motioned to the servants and they went away slowly with bowed
heads, for Sir Philip had been a good friend; they loved him, each in
his or her way, each according to his or her capacity for loving.
And always that terrible voice went on speaking, terrible because it was
quite unlike Anna’s—it was toneless, and it asked and re-asked the same
question: ‘Try to tell me where it hurts most, belovèd.’
But Sir Philip was fighting the battle of pain; of intense,
irresistible, unmanning pain. He lay silent, not answering Anna.
Then she coaxed him in words soft with memories of her country. ‘And you
the loveliest man,’ she whispered, ‘and you with the light of God in
your eyes.’ But he lay there unable to answer.
And now she seemed to forget Stephen’s presence, for she spoke as one
lover will speak with another—foolishly, fondly, inventing small names,
as one lover will do for another. And watching them Stephen beheld a
great marvel, for he opened his eyes and his eyes met her mother’s, and
a light seemed to shine over both their poor faces, transfiguring them
with something triumphant, with love—thus those two rekindled the
beacon for their child in the shadow of the valley of death.
2
It was late afternoon before the doctor arrived; he had been out all day
and the roads were heavy. He had come the moment he received the news,
come as fast as a car clogged with snow could bring him. He did what he
could, which was very little, for Sir Philip was conscious and wished to
remain so; he would not permit them to ease his pain by administering
drugs. He could speak very slowly.
‘No—not that—something urgent—I want—to say. No drugs—I know
I’m—dying—Evans.’
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